STRESSED = DESSERTS

Borrowing the idea from my fellow blogger/Brother-in-Christ, Andrew TTY; he told us about this sometime back in 2008. Indeed, stressed = desserts :-)

From last week to this week I could feel the stress at work, at Church, and even at home. Life is never juicy, but we can choose to face it from a positive point of view.

I had a bad headache yesterday and could not concentrate at all, and I just need to go home early to have a good rest. Today, I feel much better because I had nine (9) hours of sleep last night =)

How could stressed = desserts? Each morning I cast my day unto Him and pray that He would lead me through in everything. From being really stressed, we could learn to cast all our burdens and anxieties unto Him.

I may be repeating these words again and again; this is because this is a never ending lesson to be learnt by all of us. Sometimes we tend to forget that we have a BIG GOD and would rather take things into our own hands. Perhaps we felt that we are smart enough to settle everything on our own.

However, this is not so. There are a lot of things that are not within our control. We may encounter some mishaps at every stage of life. I remember telling a friend that life is like a journey on the bus. At this station, I believe I would be able to learn things that God wants me to learn; things that I have never learnt before.

Working at this place is somehow more stressful than my previous firms. From workload, to colleagues, to time management et cetera. However, I trust Him that He would lead me through. Jesus, I love you! Please be my only satisfaction!!

On Saturday night, I could not sleep well, probably due to the coffee I took at about 15:00 (no more coffees after 14:00 :p). Since I could not sleep, I spent some time praying and I thank God for His presence which fell on me. Although I was very tired on Sunday, but I could feel the joy in me.

Christmas is coming soon, and this is the busiest moment for myself; preparations after preparations that need to be observed from time to time. I have no idea how to cope, but I trust that I am not alone, for God Himself promised to us that He would never leave us alone ~ IMMANUEL :)

I may sound unrealistic, because I seem to be portraying something that cannot be seen, but isn't that faith? Faith is something not physical, yet we believe its existence!

Yes! let's have faith in Him and enjoy the DESSERTS =)

My First Time

Whilst my comrades are busy working, I chose to post a blog; probably because I have lost my concentration and need a break, and instead of disturbing my fellow comrades, I chose the blog to share my feelings with.

For the first time in my entire working life, I stayed until 02:00 this "morning" to complete a task given to us. In the past, the latest I stayed was about 00:++, and that was at the request of a partner in the firm. This time, I did it quite willingly.

It has been such a long long time since I started to feel motivated to work in such a manner. I remember in the past, no matter how trivial a task was, I would try my 110% best to complete it. However, as time goes by, my battery was getting lower and lower each day.

Perhaps that was due to the first firm I chose to enter, which left me with negative thoughts more than the positive ones. I must say, my confidence and self esteem dropped during the tenure in that firm. In my second firm, I was left to wander about the industry; having no focus in any of the areas, I finally decided to move on after two (2) years.

As for now, I have started to gain some interest in conveyancing practice. I remembered that I dislike this area, because it is rather mundane. Perhaps I have learnt to take ownership of the files handled by me. I have learnt to appreciate the nature of the whole practice. My colleague told me this, "We are helping others to solve their problems everday"; and my former employer said, "We are, in a way, helping those who are in need. In each person's life, probably they own one and only house, and we are facilitating them to acquire their "dream" house."

All this while, I thought of being a lawyer because I want to help those who are in need, especially women and children, because I feel that a lot of them are not aware of their rights. However, my choice to enter a conveyancing firm as a stepping stone, has changed my perspective on the profession all together. Hence, I was rather demotivated to become a lawyer.

I believe that God has His reasons for allowing me choose this profession when I was 13. Although I am still searching for the purpose, I believe that following His path is the way to go. We do our best in whatever position we are at, and in whatever circumstances, and let God do the rest.

Each day I come to office, although those lazy muscles are ringing in my body, I found that it is quite interesting to figure out what is the next step to take. In conveyancing practice, time is of the essence, and I learned to appreciate time and responsibility more and more, day after day.

As for communications, I am still learning to communicate with my fellow comrades, and my fellow colleagues. I have always been a quiet person, and seldom like to express myself verbally, but I know I need to take up the challenge to communicate with all the people, as we know quite clearly, no man is an island. Also, it can be quite challenging as well to learn to use different ways to communicate with different people, because we are all unique in our own way.

I have a comrade, who commented that I am "scary" because I asked personal questions. Perhaps I do not know how to find a better topic to talk about, or else, that was because I chose to be warm at the very initial stage. Friends who know me, will know me, and accept me as who I am :)

Oops, I have side tracked a little :p I left my office at 23:00 on Tuesday, and 02:00 on Wednesday; and today is Thursday, will I leave at 05:00? :p

Although the task given is rather mundane, it is challenging; because I need to crack my brain to think of words, words and words. To be frank, my exposure on vocabulary is rather limited; nonetheless, I would try my very best to complete this as soon as possible, so that I could go home earlier and SLEEP =)

All right, I guess that is all for now. It is 20:20 now; a good time to start work :)

God bless!!

Cautious

I have always been quite "open" and tend to tell people about myself. At times I would feel that I am immature, because I hold nothing back from others. Hm, call me naive? call me straight? call me honest? My mom has always been advising me to keep things to myself so that I would not expose myself to vulnerability.

A friend once told me that he likes to keep mum about a lot of things. He said that this is a step taken to protect himself. Therefore, a lot of times he would not give a direct answer to everything.

Another friend said that I am "scary" because I asked "personal" questions at the very initial stage of friendship. Hm, I thought I was just being friendly *confused*.

I remember few years ago my friend advised me to be more reserved instead of being too open. She is a good friend of mine and when I moved on to another company she advised me not tell people everything about myself.

 To a certain extent, I am "open" about myself and I do not draw a line with new acquaintances. I would answer their questions without thinking much into it. I would not also be suspicious about the new friends that I make with. In short, I just had one conclusion on my mind ~ all people are good, therefore we do not need to be cautious.

Is that true? There are a lot of people in this world and each person carries different personality. Some people are naive, some are straightforward, some are tricky, some are funny, some are serious, some are humorous, some are secretive, some are easy-going, some are laid back, some are stubborn et cetera.

Do we need to be cautious with everyone whom we meet? I just thought, let's be ourselves. If I am naive, straightforward and warm, what should stop me from being so? Am I considered as immature if I have the tendency to "blah" about everything to everyone I meet?

Of course, I do not tell everyone about everything, and I do choose what type of information I am willing to share out. If we feel comfortable sharing, then just share it out and vice versa. At work, sometimes I would go to my colleague's room and talk talk talk. Well, that is my way to de-stress, am not sure about her, but would I be considered as immature by doing so? Hm, inconsiderate perhaps, as I was "disturbing" her with her work.

Anyhow, I do hope that I would control my tongue and be more cautious because we never know who is our friend, and who is our enemy. It would be good to be neutral and indifferent about everything, so that we are not being harmed, and we are not harming anyone as well.