The Heart and The Mind

The heart is fragile,

to be handled with care,

Sometimes it wanders,

the mind calls it back,

Sometimes it stays,

the mind demands it to wander,

The heart is fragile,

please handle with care.

The heart wanders,

the mind disagrees,

The heart is ignorant,

despite what the mind says,

The hearts seeks its desires,

the mind acknowledges,

The heart is broken to pieces,

just like how a knife pierces.

The heart wanders,

and found its desire,

The mind knows the desire,

and allow the heart to take charge,

The heart wanders deeper,

the mind accommodates,

Only to find out,

the mind should take charge.

The heart could not feel,

the mind could not think,

because the pierce of the knife,

causes much pain to both,

The heart cries out,

the mind shouts,

if only time could just stop,

at when the memory was the sweetest.

The heart knows well,

the mind agrees,

that both should let go,

and to be free again,

The mud is strong,

to pull both back,

Both working hard together,

just to fight back.

The heart, the heart,

listen, listen,

the mind is logic,

but it could protect,

The mind, the mind,

listen, listen,

the heart is fragile,

to be handled with care.

心如刀割 ~ Jacky Cheung

歌手（Singer):张学友（Jacky Cheung)

ge shou: zhang xue you

歌曲明：心如刀割
ge qu ming: xin ru dao ge

(Title: Heart Pierced by a Knife)

歌词（Lyric):
ge ci:


我的天是灰色
wo de tian shi hui se

我的心是蓝色
wo de xin shi lan se

触摸着你的心
chu mo zhe ni de xin

竟是透明的
jing shi tou ming de

*你的悠然自得
ni de you ran zi de

我却束手无策
wo que shu shou wu ce

我的心痛竟是
wo de xin tong jing shi

你的快乐
ni de kuai le

其实我不想对你
qi shi wo bu xiang dui ni

恋恋不舍
lian lian bu she

但什么让我
dan shenme rang wo

辗转反侧
zhan zhuan fan ce

不觉我说着说着
bu jue wo shuo zhe shuo zhe

天就亮了
tian jiu liang le

我的唇角尝到
wo de chun jiao chang dao

一种苦涩
yi zhong ku se

我是真的为你哭了
wo shi zhen de wei ni ku le

你是真的随他走了
ni shi zhen de sui ta zou le

就在这一刻全世界
jiu zai zhe yi ke quan shi jie

伤心角色
shang xin jiao se

又多了我一个
you duo le wo yi ge

我是真的为你爱了
wo shi zhen de wei ni ai le

你是真的跟他走了
ni shi zhen de gen ta zou le

能给的我全都给了
neng gei de wo quan dou gei le

我都舍得
wo dou she de

除了让你知道
che le rang ni zhi dao

我心如刀割
wo xin ru dao ge

TRANSLATION:
My days are gray
My heart is blue
What's touching your heart
Is actually transparent

Your contentment is self obtained
I feel helpless
The pain in my heart
is actually your happiness

Actually I don't want to be reluctant to part with you
But something is making me toss and turn in bed
I don't think that saying it over and over
Will actually make the days brighter
There is now a bitter taste in the side of my mouth

I really cried for you
You really left for him
In this very moment the role of the world's most broken-hearted
Is to much for just me

I really loved for you
You really left with him
What I can give, I've given it all
I'm completely ready to part
Besides that, just letting you know...
My heart feels like it's been pierced by a knife.

END

ME ~ Simple Yet Complicated

I always categorise myself as this ~ simple yet complicated. Why? I am a simple person yet I have a very complicated mind.

I tend to think and analyse a lot. For instance, there was once I wanted to buy a new bag. It was just a very simple red backpack with two [2] compartments. What were the things I was looking for?

1) Number of compartments (I love compartments)

2) Colour (I love red)

3) Material (Waterproof would be great)

4) Durability (This is an "investment")

5) et cetera

So I found my RED backpack. Although the bag had only two [2] compartments but because I love the overall design, items 1 and 2 above were fulfilled. Next, although I knew that the material was waterproof, I asked the Sales Assistant (SA) to confirm the same; so item 3 checked. My next question to the SA was, "How long can the bag last? Could it support if I put in a lot of things?" Blah, blah, blah!

The next question the SA asked me was, "If you don't mind, may I ask, what course are you taking? Journalism? Are you going to be a reporter?"

Me: "No, I study law. Why?"

SA: "You ask a lot of questions."

Me: ...

So you see, just a simple backpack, which is not expensive and I asked tonnes of questions. In the end I bought it because I have already made up my mind to buy it from the start but I just wanted to "confirm" my concerns. Haha, that sounds like a waste of time right? Well, not to me though because it is "important" to me :)

It's Holiday!

Holiday! Holiday! All the bags in the room are excited about the coming holiday! :)

Pinky went into the room and look around. "Hmm, which bag should I bring along? Ah, Baby!!!"

So Pinky took Baby and went out from the room.

LOVE, sat at the corner, felt sad that she was not chosen. She hid in a corner to cry.

The other bags could hear her sobbed and went to her to comfort her.

Elephy: "LOVE, why are you crying? Don't be sad, you still have us :)"

Colourful: "Yes, let's hope one day Pinky will sell all of us to a better owner, one who would appreciate and treat us as their precious"

Blackie: "Yeah, no big deal LOVE, take a look at me! I am used for special occasion only and I am proud of that!!"

LOVE: "Oh, you would never know and understand my feelings. I am deeply attached to Pinky. She is my first owner. Previously nobody would even take a second look at me but Pinky discovered me! The encounters I had with Pinky were so memorable. She hugged me when she was  cold in the train, protect me when she was walking on the street, kissed me whenever she got a good result, saying that I brought her blessing, and she would never put me on the floor, and oh...there were just too many sweet memories that we shared together"...*sobbing*

Reddie: "LOVE, you are special and I am sure you deserve a better owner. In fact, all of us here deserve a better owner"

The others agreed in unison...

LOVE, felt loved and comforted by her companions but deep inside she knows that she longs for Pinky. Day by day, she waited for Pinky to be back from holiday and one day...

Pinky: "I'm back baggies!! and I had a great time! Baby had been so lovely and I love her so much! We had so much fun together!! Thank you Baby" (Pinky kept Baby nicely in her special case)

Before she walked out from the door....

Pinky: "and oh, I miss you LOVE..."

LOVE: ...

ARISE 2014 ~ 5th July 2014

The theme for ARISE is GO, GIVE & LOVE.

There was a slot for community work and when I registered myself for the event, I thought I registered for the community work. However, when I double checked with the Administration Team, I found out that I did not register for the community work.

Somehow, I was half hearted on this community work. Ironically, on Friday night when the event ended, I actually took initiative to ask my CG members to join me for breakfast at 08:30 (which would be quite early for most of us).

I attended on time for the breakfast and had a good fellowship with my CG members. Thereafter we headed to the Main Sanctuary for the first session ~ How to have a happy marriage / family?

The session was very good. As I was listening to the message, I prayed to God, telling Him the desire of my heart. Although I am very much afraid to enter into a relationship for fear that I would get hurt and heartbroken, I am ready to have a partner and to start a family.

I have no idea when God would bring me to the godly man that He had prepared for me and to lead the godly man to me, I just need to have faith and continue to pray fervently for this aspect of my life. May our good Lord grant the desires of my heart.

Despite not registering for the community work, I managed to join a group visiting the old folks home nearby SHC. It was a pleasant and good visit; spending time with the uncles and aunties, chatting with them, listening to their stories and sang some songs for them.

After our visit, we joined the bazaar held in our Church. 

We attended the next session followed by dinner before we called it a day.

In conclusion, I had a good time and I was glad I did not give in to my reluctance. Well, God never agreed with my plan anyway, and this is one of it :p

ARISE 2014 ~ 4th July 2014

To be honest, I was quite reluctant to join this event called ARISE 2014, organised by Full Gospel Assembly (FGA). Nonetheless, I registered myself when the event was first launched, so as to encourage my members to join.

As the date drew nearer, the reluctance to join became stronger. Why? The reason was very simple. I was tired, and still tired. I needed a rest, a good rest. There is a Chinese saying which goes, "we rest so that we can walk further". I guess this is quite true to a certain extent.

Why am I tired? My mind had been very "busy" thinking about things. I could hardly focus on a thing. I had to multitask so that I am busy all the time and would not have time to think or focus on things that had been bothering me. 

Well, one would say that this would be an unhealthy way because it seems that I am running away from the issue. Hence, I want to rest.

The day has arrived. Although I was still reluctant, but I attended the event anyway.

First day of the event was a Friday evening. The event starting at about 20:30 but we were encouraged to reach early to ensure parking space; being a lady driver, safety is my concern, so instead of going back to my rented room to shower and pack, I departed from my office at 18:00, estimating that I would arrive at about 19:30.

Fortunately or unfortunately, I reached early at 19:00. Oh my, what am I going to do? I feel awkward to be alone in a crowded place, not in a place where I am familiar with. Well, I can watch movie alone, have meals alone in a restaurant, enjoy shopping alone, sit at the cafe with a cup of coffee and have a good read alone, jog alone, walk at the park alone, watch the sunrise and sunset alone et cetera, but just feel awkward to be alone in a familiar place and where there would be familiar faces around.

Thank God dinner was served at 19:00 instead of 19:45. So I took my own sweet time to have my dinner. I was sitting alone in a corner and opposite me was a young lady who was sitting alone as well. I just said "Hi" and we had a short conversation. Thereafter, my CG member SMS me and she came to join me thereafter.

God is good, Amen! God had never forgotten us, Amen! God would never abandon us, Amen!

I was encouraged by the message shared by Ps Kenneth Chin. The message was taken from this:

Galatians 5:25King James Version (KJV)

25 If we live in the Spirit, let us also walk in the Spirit.

Not only we should be filled by the Holy Spirit, it is also important to fellowship with the Holy Spirit.

This message touched my heart and I must say, I felt refreshed and renewed. I must have "abandoned" God and I was so touched to listen to this important message. 

I did not stand when Ps Kenneth Chin asked us to stand; but I knew it very well in my heart that God has touched my heart that night.

I pray that God will continue to lead me in my walk with Him, that I would be well rested and get back on track soon.

Sometimes we feel lonely in our journey, but I thank God that He had never abandoned me. I have a Father who is so loving, so forgiving, so awesome, so great that no words could explain His greatness, I really thank God for everything that He had done for me.