Eru – Temptation OST : Temptation

Our love started like a lie
Yes, I prayed that it would be a lie
I hoped you’d say goodbye first
Love is so cowardly

I feel like I will die if I don’t see you
But when I see you, I go crazy, what do I do?
I want to end it, I don’t want to end it
I want you, I don’t want you

Love, why are we doing this kind of love?
A love filled with scars and tears?
But love, yes, still it’s love
Even if the end is hell, I love you

Farewell, why do you keep following us?
Us, filled with scars and tears?
Love please, farewell please
World, please remember that we were here

Don’t come close, don’t go far
Stay as you are right there
If you come to me, I will burn up
And if you go far away, I will die

I like you, I like you so much
I liked the garbage-like self, who you loved
I’m so happy, I’m hurting so much
I love you, I hate you

Love, why are we doing this kind of love?
A love filled with scars and tears?
But love, yes, still it’s love
Even if the end is hell, I love you

Farewell, why do you keep following us?
Us, filled with scars and tears?
Love please, farewell please
World, please tell others that we were here

Moon Myung Jin – Temptation OST : That Place

It can’t be, it can never be
I thought about it but I can’t stop now

I didn’t know that I was falling so hard
For a dangerous love

Can you just hold onto me
So I can’t ever go back
So I can’t look back
I just can’t, even when I try to erase you
Even when I crazily long for you
Even if my heart collapses
I can’t let you go

How much more do I have to hurt to know?
The end of this difficult love between you and me?

I didn’t know that I couldn’t escape
From this scary twisted love

Can you just hold onto me
So I can’t ever go back
So I can’t look back
I just can’t, even when I try to erase you
Even when I crazily long for you
Even if my heart collapses
I can’t let you go

Chilling regrets, cruel words that make me cry
All of those things disappear in front of you

Can you just hold onto me
So I can’t ever go back
So I can’t look back
I just can’t, even when I try to erase you
Even when I crazily long for you
Even if my heart collapses
I can’t let you go

Lena Park – Temptation OST : You and I

I shouldn’t love you, I shouldn’t do this
I tell myself this every day
But when you come, my heart shakes
When I see you, my footsteps go to you

What do I do?
I want to fall asleep with you in the same place
I want to open my eyes from your voice in the morning

You and I, in each other’s arms
Until the heavens call us
It would be nice if I die while in love

I’m afraid in case there is one more goodbye
I turn my head and look around
When I meet you, my tears stop, no
When you go far away, tears fall again

What do I do?
I want to fall asleep with you in the same place
I want to open my eyes from your voice in the morning

You and I, in each other’s arms
Until the heavens call us
It would be nice if I die while in love

When I gather my hands and close my eyes
Each time, I think of you
No matter who I met and started a new love
I thought I didn’t have any more love to give
But after meeting you, I want to live in you
As if there’s no tomorrow
I pray that I can love

LUCKY J – PITIFUL (불쌍해) TEMPTATION OST

I waited for you, I believed in you
I’m hurting as much as you are
But why are you doing this?

I couldn’t tell you I love you and am getting far away, I’m so pitiful
I couldn’t ask you to wait and am leaving, I’m so pitiful
I try to erase you but I can’t, I’m so pitiful
I live, only looking at you alone, I’m so pitiful
I wish everything was a dream

Your heart, that’s all I need, although this is so typical
I know that I’m not the one who lives in your heart
But I said that I could accept it all
It’s like I’m in the center of the target in your heart
And a glass bottle gets thrown at me, shattering into pieces
I bow my head as if memories have bended
Your hands, the shape of your eyes, your pretty dimples when you smiled
See I hate you, I’m not longing for you at all

We said goodbye, we have really broken up
I can’t ever see you again
But if I see you, I think I’ll go crazy

I couldn’t tell you I love you and am getting far away, I’m so pitiful
I couldn’t ask you to wait and am leaving, I’m so pitiful
I try to erase you but I can’t, I’m so pitiful
I live, only looking at you alone, I’m so pitiful
Everything…

We are in love but we can’t do anything about it
What do we do?

I keep missing you even more, I’m so strange
I left you because I hate you but I’m confused now, I’m so strange
Looking for you because I want to see you one more time, I’m so strange
I laugh then I suddenly cry, I’m so strange
Please, please, let this be a dream

Strengthening the Heart Muscles

When I started counting, I realised that although I just had one serious relationship with my former partner many years ago, along the way, there were some potential guys who passed by my station.

The battle of the heart and mind is a very tiring and challenging process. Your mind already knows what must be done but the heart is contemplating. When finally the mind adhered to what the heart wants to do, time actually revealed that the mind should have taken charge and guarded the heart.

I had two (2) strong crushes and both did affect me in one way or another, of which I could still take it positively. The first, I had to walk away because the guy seemed to be playing with my feelings. I felt hurt and used but I did not regret because I have obtained the answers that I wanted to know. The second, was one-sided for about four (4) years. Due to the first experience, I told myself that I would not take any initiative to ask guys questions of proceeding into the next stage of friendship anymore because it was very foolish and hurtful. Nonetheless, I took up the courage and approached my second crush even though I knew the answer would be painful.

I tried to move on that year. I attended seminars, took up classes to improve myself, engaged in active activities, made new friends, served in new environment et cetera. I was coping very well and was very comfortable with my life at that point of time. I could watch movie alone, have meals alone, shopping alone, attend seminars and classes alone, go jogging at the park alone, and many more.

I even thought that celibacy is my spiritual gift (a gift that I would want to reject if God asked whether I want to have this gift) because of one of the test I did and obtained this result until one day, one month, one year...

It really took me a lot of courage and strength to trust someone with my heart all over again, only to get hurt at the end of the day. The hurt was by choice, that would be the right word for it.

The heart is painful and hurtful, trying to accept what the mind already knew would happen. In the beginning, the mind was doing a very good job in maintaining the rationality and logic even though the heart was contemplating. I have always been a rational person and to have my mind taking over is not an issue at all.

However, the heart won the battle. As a result, it got hurt, badly. The proper illustration would be like a sharp knife piercing into the heart.

I could not understand what it meant by everything happens for a reason. I could not understand why things like this have to happen. Perhaps, I am to blame myself because I chose to get hurt this way. The conclusion was clear, but I went on with it.

To live life with no regrets, to do what we felt right at that point of time, even if it hurts, the pain is worth. Not too sure if I agree but I have to endure the pain and get through it...

Perhaps, my heart muscles will be strengthen after all these sagas...

Perhaps...