You Will be Deeply Missed [II]

Dear Alex Sim,

Today you'll bid us goodbye
Many of us will cry
Asking God why
You must say this goodbye

You've left a legacy behind
We will keep in mind
To be sincere & kind
To all mankind

You've lived a life
Impacting many lives
Your light will continue to shine
Till we say "hi" (in heaven)

弟兄，一路好走。。再见了

You Will Be Deeply Missed [I]

I was back to office from lunch and received a call from a sister. We usually text each other and to receive a call from her on a working day was not a norm. She told me that she received a text message which informed the passing of a brother whom she knew I was quite close with.

Shocked. Numbed. I was not convinced so I asked her to forward to me the text; maybe that's because I am a word person, I have to read to be convinced.

Shortly after, another sister text me and then another...

Reality did not set in until much later. I could not focus on my work at all. The whole afternoon was trying to recollect myself and discussing with some sisters how we could help his family...

I still remember when I first knew him, he was one of the very few who made me feel welcomed.

Once we were in a gathering at a Pastor's house, and they were playing boardgames. I was standing there alone, not knowing many people & he called me to join the group. Another time I was just standing there after service and he invited me to join the rest for dinner. There was once we had a YA game session and he took good care of me, asked me to follow his car.

There were several occasions he helped me when I needed help by just a call away. In the midst of his busyness, he would spare time for his friends. Once, my Eagle could not start and I was around his housing area, so I called him for help; instead of staying in the comfort of his own home, he came to my rescue.

He gave sound advice and cared from his heart. He told me he cared about my happiness and usually many would say this but would not act on it. He was different, he actually acted on it by introducing someone to me. 

Always cheerful, always jovial, always positive....I could not understand but to ask God, why?

"Alice...Alice..."; his voice ringing in my ears :(

We last met in January at a stall nearby my office, having red wine chicken for lunch; and he bought me lunch that day because my birthday was coming soon. 

His birthday is next month and it would be my turn to buy him a meal but.... :(

We last contacted each other two days ago because I asked him something about my policy. He had always been a helpful agent and would go the extra mile to assist.

My dear brother, you will be deeply missed :(

Major Throwback: 14-05-2011 ~ Ta-Daa!! Here Comes the Narrator =)

Back in May 2011, I went to Bangkok with a group of friends and thanks to Facebook Memories, I was reminded of this Note that I have posted on the trip. I want to keep this precious memory, hence transferring it from FB to my personal blog.

 

As I read back this post, I see myself changed; from the way I see things, to the way I express myself. Hence, things will change, only memories remain...

It is always amazing to see how God brings (us) together; two people from different background, meet under common circumstances, and then fell in love with each other, followed by courtship and finally, plan to walk along the wonderful journey, namely marriage, hand in hand till death do (us) apart ~

In the Bible, 1 Corinthians 13:13 says ~
13 And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13: 4 - 8 ~
4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. 8 Love never fails.

Love is wonderful, Amen :) With love, we are able to accept each other's shortcomings and with acceptance, there is sense of security. Whenever we see wonderful couples walking along the aisle, we feel touched because love has brought them together.

I am often touched by the couple's thanksgiving speech at the end of the wedding ceremony. When they thank their parents for their love, followed by their thankfulness to relatives, friends, and even acquaintances; this shows how powerful love is. With love, everything is possible.

I always find it amazing when we witness how God works in us human. At first both are imperfect, but we are made perfect in God's love; with His love and presence, both imperfect people are able to accept each other from deep inside their heart ~ what a wonderful picture.

Have you seen a couple whom you think are not a match in the eyes of people? For instance, in terms of education level, physical attractiveness, family backgrounds etc. However, love does not view these things with the human eye, especially when God's love intervenes.

I used to have a long list of requirements on my future partner, however knowing that myself is imperfect, I just have one requirement ~ a God-fearing man who is willing & able to accept my shortcomings with love ~

Oops, too much into my narration huh :p
Here comes the story:-

The GUY came with an ULTIMATE motive
The GAL came with only ONE purpose
Both came to the same destination

The GUY plans to give the GAL a BIG SURPRISE!
The GAL has some expectation from the GUY
Both have different form of expectation from this trip

Tick Tock, Tick Tock
Finally the time comes ~ 10th May, which is also the GAL's birthday date
The GUY starts to execute his plan with his accomplices :p
Accomplices ~ TWO Handsome Guys & TWO Pretty Ladies :))

First, to ask the GAL to go up to a specific venue
Then to blindfold the GAL to play a game
Next the GUY asked the GAL some questions
After some Q&A sessions, the GAL was allowed to see
Oops, what did she see? & what did she hear? & what did she say?
Aha!~ The GUY's expectation was fulfilled!
Simultaneously, the GAL's expectation was also met!
Thereafter, one round of CELEBRATION & MORE SURPRISES!!! =)))

A Joyful moment filled with God's presence
A Joyful moment to be remembered by all those who are present
A Joyful moment shared by family members & friends
A Joyful moment to be passed from generation to generation

At the end of the day, love conquers all the negative feelings & with love that sparks between them, I believe they will carry on their lives hand in hand in God's love :)

10th May, 2011 at Page 10 Hotel in Pattaya, Thailand
A venue specifically chosen for this purpose
A day specifically chosen for this purpose
A purpose fulfilled for the perfect reason

Marriage, a wonderful journey awaiting this wonderful couple ~
May Lord bless them with His Love, Joy, Peace, Grace, Mercy, Blessing & Wisdom :)

I am a Collector

Today is 9th July 2011, marked the history of Malaysia. There was the BERSIH rally today and many were arrested, but in a nutshell, it was a successful rally. Usually I have no interest in this kind of news, but today I purposely online today to check the news, and also to blog.

There was roadblock everywhere in the Klang Valley today and I had no where to go. I woke up early at about 08:40 and after washing my face and had a scoop of protein, all of sudden I started to clean up my study room. I did not have this thought at all, as I wanted to workout this morning. Nonetheless, I have 80 percent completed the spring cleaning process ~ Praise the Lord =)

I found out more about myself today. I notice that I am a collector. I collect bags, papers, paper bags, boxes, and most of all, I collect memory. I used to pen down my feelings in a diary and I have been doing it for many years until some time ago, I stopped and changed to blogging instead. Perhaps it is more convenient to blog, but the significance of writing it down in a diary is a different feeling all together.

My last entry was on 28th January 2010, on my birthday. It was just a brief description on what I did on the day before, whereby a friend celebrated with me at Alexis, Bangsar. I found my entries from September 2003 onwards and read some of it.

I found out that I touch the diary whenever I feel unhappy, as such, there were a lot of negative feelings in my diary. It was more like a letter from me to God; each time I feel sad, I will choose to tell God and then bury my feelings deep down.

Of course, I do pen down happy moments too, especially those that I would want to remember. I still do it now, just that I blog it instead of writing it down in my diary. Hm, it has been quite some time since I last blog in my secret blog, perhaps it is time to do so again...

Okay, it is quite late now and I am getting tired, will continue tomorrow if I have the time to online.

Good night =)

Prayer ~ 29th January 2009

Prayer

As I am thinking how to write this Post, I am listening to a song entitled “Prayer”. Today my heart is down, my mind is confused. This song helps to clear my mind; it reminds me to pray to God for Jesus says:

“Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks find; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.”

Sometimes I really wonder what God has in store for me. I also wonder if I can go back to the original state; perhaps I will not be in such a state of confusion like now. I really wonder what God wants me to learn this time. I remember a Bible verse which says:

“No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; He will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, He will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.”

I remember one of my friend told me, when she was a ‘baby’ Christian, God heard her prayer, whatever she asked for God will provide; but she also discovered that as she growed up spiritually, things were not so smooth.

I once shared with a friend that life is like a bus journey. At each stop, some people will get in, some people will get down; likewise, at different stage of our lives, things happen, whether positively or negatively. If I were to apply my friend’s sharing rigidly to the situation now, everything seems so fine at the beginning, but now temptations, obstacles and tests have filled in.

In my heart, there is fear. I fear that one of the things that I treasure will be jeopardised. I fear that my heart will be broken once more. I fear that I am not able to cope with the challenge. Oh Lord, please show me Your light, please guide me in paths of Your righteousness.

Deep inside I know my heart hurts, my mind is confuse; all I can do is to pray hard, just like the song, for God is there for us at all times. I hope, and I really hope that ‘it’ can be saved and in fact will grow stronger as ‘we’ go through the challenge unitedly.

Dearest Abba Father,

I [we] cast this obstacle unto Your hands. Please show me [us] Your wisdom so that I [we] will walk in Your path with the guidance of Your light. Holy Spirit, please be with me [us] at all times so that I [we] will rely not on my [our] own understanding, but on Your wisdom and strength. Please help me [us] to keep God’s commands in my [our] heart[s]. Please help me [us] to let go, and let God take charge of my [our] life [lives], for You alone know what is best for me [us]. Please guard my [our] heart[s] and my [our] mind[s], so that I [we] will love the Lord with all my [our] heart, my [our] mind, my [our] soul and my [our] might. Jesus, I [we] need You because I [we] am [are] insufficient. I [We] seek Your presence in whatever I [we] do, wherever I [we] go, however I [we] am [are] and whenever it is. Please walk with me [us] so that I [we] will not stumble.

Our Father in Heaven, hallowed be Your name,

Your kingdom come, Your will be done.

on earth as it is in Heaven,

give us today our daily bread,

forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors,

and lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one.

For Thine is the kingdom, and the power,

and the glory, forever, Amen.

Dear Lord, please listen to ‘our’ prayer and lead us through with Your Love, Joy Peace, Grace, Hope, Strength and most of all, Your Wisdom. As we pray ‘unitedly’ we seek the Holy Spirit to purify us so that we will be moulded into God’s desired child. 

In Jesus’ precious name we pray, Amen.

It’s Year End [Again] ~ 25th January 2009

It’s Year End [Again]

Today is the last day of the year in the Lunar Calendar, a day which all of us will be busy preparing for the reunion dinner. So happen that today is also a Sunday; there were very few people attended the Sunday Service as most of the Brothers and Sisters have gone back to their respective hometowns.

Today’s Sermon was meaningful and inspiring:-

[Relationship with God]

My son, do not forget my teaching, but keep my commands in your heart, for they will prolong your life many years and bring you prosperity.

[Relationship with Man]

Let love and faithfulness never leave you; bind them around your neck, write them on the tablet of your heart. Then you will win favour and a good name in the sight of God and man.

[Fully Rely on God]

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight.

[Attitude Towards Evil / Sin]

Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil. This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.

[Attitude Towards Wealth]

Honour the Lord with your wealth, with the firstfruits of all your crops; then your barns will be filled to overflowing, and your vats will brom over with new wine.

[The Lord's Discipline]

My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline and do not resent His rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those He loves, as a father the son He delights in.

Proverbs 3: 1 - 12

This Sermon reminds me to seek the Lord as my priority in all aspects in my life.

For the past week I have learnt few important lessons. It is always easier said than done:-

Firstly, is to ‘LET GO AND LET GOD’. I remember that this principle was taught many years ago. Frankly, how many of us can really let go [fully] and let God take charge? However, no matter how tough, we still have to learn to let go FULLY and let God take charge. Over the years, I have begun to grasp this principle bit by bit; from family, to friendship, to studies and other aspects. It is definitely not an easy task, even till today I will take quite some time to learn to let Him take charge of my life. I thank Him because He never let go of me, although sometimes I’m being stubborn to let go of certain things in life. Abba Father, I thank You and pray that in 2009, Holy Spirit will help me to FULLY RELY ON GOD.

Secondly, is to be PATIENT. Another principle which I was exposed to many years ago, that God has His own time and plan; that when the time comes, He will reveal His plan to us. Recently I feel down because all of sudden I have lost direction in my life, especially on my career. I have just started work last week, throughout the week I could not concentrate on my work and was not motivated to work. I wonder if this profession is what God has planned for me. I wonder whether it was because of post-holiday blues or I was looking forward to CNY break; all sorts of thoughts filled my mind…however I believe that by being patient, God will lead me through. He never left me alone in the past, therefore, He will not leave me alone in the present as well as in the future.

Thirdly, is to TRUST GOD. This is a very simple principle in life and it links with the above. Although sometimes I refuse to let go, but often I trust that God will take care of everything. Very often I will worry about something, then after prayer, I can ‘forget’ about the matter [almost instantly and completely], till it’s time to think about it again. I wonder if this is good because this actually makes me a very ‘care less’ person.

I hope and pray hard that this year will be a breakthrough for me. To hold onto these principles is not easy, but it can be done because: I can do everything in Him who gives me strength.

Weng Yin, gambate!=)

Happy “NIU” Year to all Family & Friends! May the LOVE, JOY, PEACE & GRACE of the Lord be with us at all times…God bless!!

Immanuel, Shalom & Agape^ ^

Goodbye 2008 ~ 26th December 2008

Goodbye 2008…

First Quarter - CONTEMPLATION

Second Quarter - EXCITEMENT

Third Quarter - UNCERTAINTY

Fourth Quarter - WONDERFUL

God has blessed me this year with His Love, Joy, Peace and Grace this year…

I went through some uncertain circumstances which taught me to rely on Him more and more;

I built a number of friendships with wonderful people;

I have smoothly finished my nine [9] months of chambering;

I begin to see that God is working in me…

I believe that to use just a few words will not be able to describe what God had done for me throughout the year. I never thought that I will go through change this year. I think the biggest change would be on the aspect of openness. Perhaps in the past I have been quite reserved but strangely enough, I am more open this year. At the very least, I am more able to open myself to new friendships. I have been quite busy these few months; and have actually involved myself in some church activities. I never thought that this would happen, never at all. God must have been working in me, as my heart is ‘warm’ once again. I have no idea what He has planned for me, I am just hoping that 2009 will be a better year. I can see that a new journey has just begin…

On the downside, I experienced some fragility in friendships this year. Firstly, I have no idea what happened that a friend avoided me and now trying to keep in touch with me once again; secondly, I was being untactful that my ’straightness’ and ‘openness’ had put the friendship at stake; and lastly, I have actually made a friend unhappy with me because of my keenness to bless this friend…

However, God is being gracious to me. Despite the above, I have built new friendships as well. Out of the blue, I have opened myself to new opportunities to meet with new people and now am closely connected to them. Deep inside, I really appreciate their friendship and would like to take this opportunity to thank them for they have spiced up my life. Further to this, I have reconciled my friendship with my good friend, CLAY and it is touching to know that she has the same thinking. Thank God for this…

It is a wonderful Christmas this year. The church that I attend had organised a Christmas party; given that my friends are usually ‘busy’ whenever I invite them, I did not put much hope that any of them will attend [perhaps I need to take up the lesson of FAITH once more], but two [2] agreed to come and one [1] of them accepted Christ…Praise the Lord, Hallelujah=) This is the best Christmas gift that I have received, and this simple gift is the most meaningful…

As I am writing this blog, my heart is touched because God did not forget me. He had always been with me. Although I did go through the usual life’s ups and downs, but He’s always there for me. He never let go of my hand and had always remained as my best friend. It’s because of Him I am able to stand here today. It’s all because of Him…

2008 is definitely a memorable experience but I am looking forward to 2009, hoping that through His Love, Joy, Peace and Grace, more and more people will be touched by Him. God is great, all the time! All the time, God is great!

Before I end, I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone for everything. Thanks for making my 2008 a wonderful experience. Let’s walk down the memory lane together, whilst looking forward to a better future. 

Most of all, our future is in God’s hands…

 y yip Says:
December 26th, 2008 at 11:04 pm

Praise the Lord,i can foresee 2009 will be another great year for all of us!

Legal Aid…What I Learnt from It? ~ 7th October 2008

Legal Aid…What I Learnt from It?

Today is my last day of my legal aid duty. I still remember when I first entered the prison, I had mixed feelings of excitement, anxiousness and curiosity..not knowing what to expect from our interviews with our clients…

I was hoping that the legal aid duty will end soon; now that it has come to an end, I feel heavy… Throughout the six visits to Sg Buloh Prison, I must say today’s visit will be the most memorable one…

My first client was a member of the triad gang; after the interview, he shared about his story…one that touched me most…he told me that he is now a Christian…Praise the Lord…

During the gathering at my house last Saturday, the Brother who did the sharing talked about how God will not leave us but to emphasise that He will be with us at all times…this story of my client has proved that God is Good, All the Time; and All the Time, God is Good.

This piece of testimony brings hope to all of us, telling us that no matter how hopeless is the situation, God never gave up on us. If He could open a triad member’s heart to accept Him, what else could stop Him from opening our hearts to receive His salvation. I believe that so long as we have the faith and trust, nothing is impossible in Him.

Heaven is real, Hell is also real. We have performed and seen this drama many many times and yet sometimes we will just keep this truth in abeyance. The Sister who shared last Sunday talked about the salvation of our immediate family members, our relatives, our friends as well as our acquaintances.

Christ is coming back soon and the BIBLE says we must always keep watch for we do not know the hour. Let’s cross our hands together and pray for the salvation of the lost souls.

I learnt a great lesson today - God never forgets about any one of us; to Him, each and every lost souls is precious is His eyes…His unconditional love is the core behind our belief.

Immanuel, Shalom & Agape^ ^

A New Beginning, A New Breakthrough ~ 5th October 2008

A New Beginning, A New Breakthrough

By just taking a small step, change has taken place…

I still remember three years ago my parents wanted me to attend a church near my house instead of traveling to PJ to attend my former church. I was very reluctant to do so back then because I grew up in my former church, and had already entered the comfort zone. However, due to transportation difficulty I had no choice but to adhere to my parents’ decision.

I could hardly adapt myself to the new church. The people were very ‘cool’. I can’t feel any warmness, especially amongst the young ones. As I was still serving at my former church, the leader persuaded me not to withdraw myself from the ministry; and I gave myself three years to get a car so that I can return to my former church.

My mission was to attend service every Sunday in the new church. I still remember a sister kept on approaching me and asking me a lot of questions. She was always encouraging me to join them. Due to this ‘mission’, I reserved myself and refused to be active in the new church. Further, I felt that I was invisible most of the time; and as such, I did not have any sense of belonging.

I never thought that God wants to put me here. All I have in mind is I want to return to my former church after I get my own car. Now, about three years later, I have yet to get a car and what is strange is that I have a sudden urge to commit myself to this new church despite the discouragements that I received.

An announcement of a visit to a Children Home, and an urge in my heart to join this visit changed my perception and direction. At that time, about a month ago, I thought that my interest in children had encouraged me to join the visit. However, it seems that God is opening my heart to accept change and perhaps new challenges.

From the 6^th day of September 2008 onwards, I have attended the Youth Fellowship without fail every week. What I found surprising was that I hope to get a car the earliest possible so that I can attend the fellowship every week without troubling others to fetch me home. All of a sudden, my desire to serve God had returned.

A lady Pastor told me to let go and let God on the 7^th day of September 2008. I wonder whether I have to let go my desire to return to my former church. On that Sunday itself, I sms a good friend of mine, hoping to reconcile our friendship, which was affected by environmental change in our lives. We chatted on msn a few days later, and when I shared with her, I was glad when she said: “Weng Yin is back”.

Is Weng Yin back? I found some new discovery during a 2-days, 1-night trip to Cameron Highlands with two Brothers and two Sisters. I never thought that I will agree to join this trip. When one of the Sisters asked me, I just agreed without hesitation. However, when I knew there were just five of us, there was an urge to say ‘No’ and yet, I still said ‘Yes’.

The trip went well. I found that I am more ‘open’ than before. I did things that I would normally do with or in front of my close friends. Is Weng Yin back? Suddenly there’s a fear in my heart as I seldom ‘open’ myself in front of people whom I just knew. When I came back from Cameron, I had self-doubt again.

GOD IS GOOD. He did not leave me alone. He arranged people in my life, people whom I can share my thoughts and feelings with. I felt touched by Him. I shared with some people on my thoughts and feelings; and through their assurance and encouragement, I know I should just submit myself to His will.

I begin to see that I am not in this new church by coincidence. I begin to see that I will have a new direction in life. During the trip, I asked a Sister whether I have made the right decision to settle down in this new church. She comforted me with the word of God. At this moment, I shall just focus on this mission and I believe I will not walk alone because He will guide me step by step.

Here, I want to take this opportunity to thank all the Brothers and Sisters for their encouragement and support. It is my pleasure to meet with all of you and may God bless you with His LOVE, JOY, PEACE, WISDOM and GRACE.

Touched…once again ~ 8th September 2008

Touched…once again

It has been such a long time since I walk up to the altar to pray…I had a good time in church today…

Two weeks ago the youth representative from my church announced a church activity which attracted my attention. I have been inactive since I joined this church in 2006. However, when the youth announced on the visit to Charis Home, something urged me to participate. I contemplated for about a week until last week, I asked a sister, to whom I am closer with, whether she’s joining the activity; and in the end, I have registered myself to join the visit.

We visited the Charis Home yesterday. My intention was to take an initiative to join the youths in the church as well as to answer the urge in my heart. I was glad that I participated, as it seemed to be a new beginning in my life. I went to ‘yum cha’ with 4 brothers and sisters after the visit. For the first time, I had a long conversation with my peers in church.

I served as an usher this morning. During the worship session, I was able to feel God’s presence. After the sermon, when the Pastor urged us to go out to the altar to pray, I knew I must go out…

During the prayer, memories came flashing on my mind. I thought back about the past; the days I was serving actively in my previous church; tears running down my cheeks. After the prayer, I felt light and refreshed. Lord, please forgive me for I have rested for quite some time. Please renew me once again so that I can continue to grow up in You. I need You. Thank You Jesus for not giving up on me. In Jesus’ precious name I thank You, Amen.

Jesus says to forget what is behind and to focus on the future. I hope and pray hard that I will have a new beginning from now on. Gambate!=)

Beijing 2008 ~ 24th August 2008

Beijing 2008

My brother won a trip to Beijing to watch the Olympic 2008. I believe it is a blessing from God. I have never been to other countries before and if I were to save to travel, I will have to wait for many many years before I have the opportunity to do so.

The trip to Beijing was an enjoyable one; and what was more interesting was, I got to watch two olympic events. Although I do not know much about volleyball and handball, it is always different to watch it from the TV and to watch in on the spot.

I had a great time at the Forbidden City and the Great Wall. The architecture was fascinating. I must say, our fore-fathers were wise and their artworks were impressive. In modern time, the bird nest was very impressive too.

I do appreciate the nature, artwork, history and architecture of the Chinese. If I were given a chance, I will travel to China once again. The trip was definitely insufficient to truly enjoy and appreciate the country.

Last but not least, congratulations to China for winning the most golds in Beijing Olympic 2008. Malaysia, gambate in Olympic 2012!!

Another Stage ~ 22nd February 2008

Another Stage

After almost a month break, I am going to start chambering soon. I had my doubts, whether to chamber or otherwise, and when nine months of chambering is completed, will I continue to practise?…

As we grow up, we enter into different stages of life. For instance, after SPM, it would be college, then work, then career and the list goes on. At this stage, I hope I have made the right decision. After all, I have worked so hard to come to this stage. This is the final stage before I embark my career in the legal field. 

I have been working in a legal firm for a year plus and the reality is completely different from what I perceived it to be. Hence, I had my doubts as to whether I have made the right decision to read law. Perhaps I should give myself another chance to experience the legal world before making my final decision. 

Chambering, how is it like? Is it challenging? Is it tough? Will it light up the fire in me again? Will it be an eye opener? Will it be different from my first experience? Will I be able to find the satisfaction that I crave for? I hope to find these answers along with other curiosities I have in me. 

Well, I guess I just have to think positively and look forward to start this new stage. Chambering, here I come. Hopefully I will be able to find healthy and positive answers along the way, and nine months later, I will have something nice to write and comment about. 

God will make a way, where there seems to be no way,

He works in ways we cannot see, He will make a way for me.

Amen.

Friendship ~ 29th November 2007

Friendship

I have always put a lot of emphasis on friendship until two years ago I experienced a "mishap" with a very good friend of mine. We have known each other for more than 10 years but our friendship deteriorated in just few months time…I wonder, how can a 10-year relationship end just like that? I cannot seem to understand what had happened…blame the environment?…since both of us seemed to be from different background, grew up in different environment etc…or…? I really do not know…

This experience made me "fear" to build up friendship with others…until yesterday…I thank a friend for giving me love, support, encouragement, for being by my side listening to my grouses patiently and attentively without complaining that I am irritating and annoying her…and she replied by saying that she’s my friend so she will always be there for me whenever I need her…I was very touched and do not know how to express my gratitude towards her…

Perhaps I should not have the "fear" in me because the grass is always greener on the other side…I am not sure how I will react to friendship in the days to come…just sincerely hoping that I will do my best to contribute…

Is friendship about investment or sincerity or both? I think it is about LOVE…it is power of love that allows us to put in our effort without fail in EVERY aspect of life…

THANK YOU FRIENDS FOR ALL YOUR LOVE…

Love,

AliceYin

touched ~ 23rd October 2007

touched

one day, i received a call from my friend saying that our result is out…i was touched when another friend quickly volunteered to help us call and ask for our results…

after i’ve got my result, i was touched when a lot of friends called up and sms to give me advice, encouragement and support…

when i was exhausted and felt restless, almost wanting to give up, friends called and sms to give me lots of support and encouragement…i still remember few days before the exam, a good friend, WFM called and we chatted for long hours…helping me to relax, and to gain confidence…and the day before the day for the battle, i received a lot of sms (even from those that i do not expect them to do so)…at that point in time, i felt touched because there’re so many people supporting me, encouraging me not to give up…

at work, i’m touched when i have helpful colleagues around me…and in life, i am glad to have friends who are not bored with my long and boring stories…

life will never be the same if there’s no friends around us…i remember a quote saying…"we don’t need a lot of friends around us, just one true friend is sufficient"…i am glad to have friends from church, high school, college and now at work to be with me and be willing to share with me…

at one point in life, i put a lot of emphasis on friendship…of course, there’s always ups and downs in life…and now, i think to have a balance in all aspects of life will be what i’m aiming for…

it has been such a long time since d last time i actually feel touched about something…last Sunday, i was touched by God…and once again i’m renewed and refreshed…during the times when i was feeling so down; His hands, His comfort, His presence, His love, His grace, His mercy and He Himself led me through, guiding me closely so that i would not be out of His sight…i will never forget the vision which showed His hands holding my own very firmly, not letting go of it forever and ever…praise the Lord…

keep in touch…mere words of courtesy or…? ~ 30th May 2007

keep in touch…mere words of courtesy or…?

very often we tell our friends to keep in touch (k.i.t.) at the end of our meeting or gathering but how often do we keep our words?…or do we say those words just for the sake of courtesy?

it has come to a point that i’m tired of keeping in touch with friends…especially when i sense that the ‘fire’ no longer exists…i asked myself: am i the cause?…or is it because of change?…i think there are many reasons to explain and some reasons can be very subjective too…

i stil remember a good friend of mine, CLAY, who always called me up to catch up with each other’s life but i seldom make the calls notwithstanding the fact that i do sms and e-mail…as time goes by, the calls become lesser and lesser and lesser to the extent that not even e-mails and sms-es are being exchanged…why is this so?…well, maybe she’s tired of becoming the one who keeps on taking the initiative…this reminds me to be more pro-active and careful next time…to this friend, i would like to say THANK YOU for your efforts to k.i.t. with me…i appreciate it and hope we are still able to k.i.t. in the future…

from this experience, i tend to take up the initiative to k.i.t. with my friends…sometimes it’s rewarding, sometimes it’s otherwise…whichever it is, i still find it ‘nourishing’ to k.i.t. because no man lives in an island and we can gain a lot of things from these meetings or gatherings…be it good or bad, it is still an experience…for instance, i found out that sometimes a simple word of "hi" is able to make a lot of difference…it may even brighthen up someone’s day=)

here, i would like to take this opportunity to thank my friends who have been keeping in touch with me…particularly, Gerri, Wendy, Jacklyn, Sheryn, Lavaine, Andrew, Sim Yee, Man, Ting Ting and many more…my apology if i missed out any of your names…

Happy Keeping in Touch^ ^

AliceYin

My Days at TTC ~ 16th October 2006

My Days at TTC

22 July 2005

this was my first day at TTC…i was told that the person whom i would be replacing would be leaving the next day…back then i had no idea how to cope with the workload as i was give only a day to learn all the things…i still remember my biggest worry was to remember all the kids’ names…phew, there were more than a hundred kids and i have to know all of them…it was not easy but as time passed, i was used to it and now, having left TTC for about 7 months, i still remember most of them…

As i was doing my work, few 6 year olds came to me asking about me…my principal told me that i will always remember one kid by the name of LHY cuz he’s very naughty and always misbehave…i muz say of all d kids, tis boy gave me the deepest impression and i will never forget him…an extremely bright,smart and mature…he had became one of my favourites…

Aug ‘05 - Mar ‘06

i enjoyed working with the kids…they always remind me to be simple and taught me to enjoy my life…i started to build relationship with the kids and i was honoured to be part of the team educating our future generation…amongst the kids that i especially like are  WZJ, KCH, KSH and many more…some of them need some extra attention, whilst there are some whom i admire…hehe(",)…from time to time, i would take a peek at them especially when they were taking their nap…i realised that no matter how mischievous and naughty they are, all of them look the same (they all have the naive look) when they sleep…

31 March 2006

this was my last day at TTC…as i was completing my work, i knew that i will miss these kids…i felt so ‘heavy’ when i walked out of the gate…i wonder when i will be back to see them again…

15 Oct 2006

this was TTC’s concert day…i agreed to help and was so anxious to see the kids again…i had a bad headache the day before and was hesitant to attend but since i agreed, i have to keep my words…it was great as i enjoyed myself throughout the day. Although i din get to see the performances, it was good enough for me to help out back stage…i was surprised that some of the kids remembered my name and i was especially happy when LHY called me…it was a busy day but it was worth it…i sensed that i really love working with kids…when i went for interview at a law firm, the interviewer asked why i did not take some course relating to pre-school education cuz law is completely different…i never thought of this seriously as i wanted to do law since i was 13…well, maybe i shall consider this in the near future…as for now, i’m curious as to how the legal world is like…