Another Year

In a blink of an eye, 2009 is coming to an end. I still remember my last post of year 2008, whereby I was sharing how God had lead me.

This year has been a quiet year. My life generally was like a roller coaster. Sometimes it is high, sometimes it is low. Hm, should I consider it as an exciting year? Perhaps so...

Things were still fine during early of the year. I still remember last year this time, I was anticipating for a better 2009. I was hoping that relationships would be better, career would be more stable, etc.

Shortly after I fell down from the staircase in February, things started to change gradually.

From a very close group of friends, we became like strangers,

From a stranger, we became close out of a sudden,

From an acquaintance, we became closer as time goes by,

From very close, we became strangers again...

Up and down, up and down; that was my life in 2009.

In terms of career, as usual, I feel that I am stagnant in this place. Should I move on? Should I stay? Where do You want me to go?

This Christmas has been very quiet. I went to my former Church to attend Christmas service. Ironically, I felt home. However, things often happen in such a way that we ourselves cannot understand. I was hoping, and still hoping that I can grow up spiritually in a place I think I can grow; but God seems to be playing tricks on me. The more I want to leave, the more tasks He is giving me.

Oh, what should I do? Should I stay on for another few months? Well, knowing myself, I think I would not be going anywhere until strong signals from Him showing that I should move on.

Will 2010 be a better year? Will my blog entry be different at this time next year?

I am anticipating this...

Wo Yuan Yi ~ Faye Wong

Wo Yuan Yi ~ Faye Wong

 
si nian shi yi zhong hen xuan de dong xi
ru ying ~ shui xing
wu sheng you wu xi chu mo zai xin di
zhuan yan ~ tun mo wo zai ji mo li
wo wu li kang ju te bie shi ye li
xiang ni dao wu fa hu xi
hen bu neng li jin chao ni kuang ben qu
da sheng de kao shu ni ~
yuan yi wei ni wo yuan yi wei ni
wo yuan yi wei ni wang ji wo xing ming
jiu suan duo yi miao ting liu zai ni huai li
shi qu shi jie ye bu ke xi
wo yuan yi wei ni wo yuan yi wei ni
wo yuan yi wei ni bei fang zhu tian ji
zhi yao ni zhen xin na ai yu wo hui ying
shen me dou yuan yi
shen mo dou yuan yi wei ni

ENGLISH TRANSLATION :

Missing thoughts is a very obscure thing
like shadow ~ taking shape of whatever
Silently and breathlessly resurface at the bottom of heart
In a blink of an eye ~ shrouded me in loneliness
I weakly fight against, especially at night
Think of you till breathless
Hate that I can't immediately sprint towards you
Loudly tell you ~
willing for you, I'm willing for you
I'm willing to forget my name for you
Even if just an extra second in your embrace
No regrets losing the world
I'm willing for you, I'm willing for you
I'm willing to be left at the end of the world for you
As long as you sincerely reciprocate with love
anything (i'm) willing
Anything (i'm) willing for you

思念是一种很玄的东西
如影~随形
无声又无息出没在心底
转眼~吞没我在寂默里
我无力抗拒特别是夜里喔~
想你到无法呼吸
恨不能立即朝你狂奔去
大声的告诉你~
愿意为你我愿意为你
我愿意为你忘记我姓名
就算多一秒停留在你怀里
失去世界也不可惜
我愿意为你我愿意为你
我愿意为你被放逐天际
只要你真心拿爱与我回应
什么都愿意
什么都愿意为你

Happy Birthday to...

you...

It has been few months since we last contacted. I wish you well. Blessed Birthday to you in advance. I know it is tomorrow but I just thought of wishing you now. I know you might not visit this post, but it is just my style to wish everybody I know on their birthday. So, no special meaning attached.

Take care and God bless!

I Think Too Much

Very often in our lives we will go through a series of events that will lead from one to another. Sometimes we tend to think too much about one certain event, and this may lead to two conclusion: good or bad. Hmm, what is this about?

Myself, for example, sometimes I tend to be sensitive and think about things that is actually not the case. How do I go about this? For instance, my dad asks me to drive carefully whenever I see a motocyclist in front of me, but I will go on to think that he is saying that I drive too fast.

This in turn, would lead to miscommunication. If this is not clarified, it will lead to bitter feeling in me. Consequently, I will have my mood swing and react badly to the situation.

Yes, I do think too much. I feel that sometimes we can just leave things as it is and let the thing speaks for itself. A is A, B is B, it is just as simple as A, B, C. Why do we want to complicate things and think about things that is actually not the case?

LOL~ I think my mom must have inherited her imaginative skills to me. She is really good at this, and very often, misunderstanding arise from this too :p

Anyhow, I have to learn to be simpler. A will not be B unless in extreme cases whereby we can just draw a stroke below and it turns out to be B.

"Do not worry about tomorrow for tomorrow will worry about itself". This is what Jesus said. It is time to let go and let God take over things that are not within our control.

Cheers!

Grateful (I)

Yesterday I was having lunch with my colleague. As I was chatting with her about her mom's condition, I came to realise that there are a lot of things that we should be grateful about. For instance, I am grateful to God because my parents are still healthy and still able to move around.

In life, there are a lot of things that we tend to take for granted. When I hear that her mom is hospitalised, I was really grateful that God had mercy on us 13 years ago. I still remember it was few days before my birthday, my mom had to undergo a lung operation. I told my mom to be strong and that God is with her, and she must come out to celebrate my birthday.

At that time, Doctor informed that the operation was only going to take two (2) hours; so I was in my school uniform, thinking that I could still attend class after visiting my mom after her operation.

Two hours passed, but nobody came out. My family and I were getting anxious as there was no one to inform us what was going on. Hour by hour, finally after the sixth hour, the Doctor came out and informed us that the operation was successful! Praise the Lord!

Then the Doctor told us that he had to cut out my mom's lung (one side) [the reason my mom went for lung operation was because she had a shadow at one side of her lung (suspected cancer)] because they were afraid that the 'shadow' will spread to other parts of the body.

I remembered that the Doctor said it was classified as second stage cancer, but my dad kept on denying it. Anyhow, having only one lung, my mom is still very healthy now. Doctor said she would be under observation for five (5) years, and if nothing goes wrong, she is okay thereafter :)

Today, after 13 years, she is still here with us, living healthily and is a living testimony that God is great. I really thank God for being kind to us and that He always remembers us at all times. I hope that my colleague's mom will accept Christ as her Saviour.

I also hope that readers who are Christian help to pray for my colleague's mom, Mrs Wong, that she will be able to open her heart to accept Christ when the news of salvation reaches her ear.

Abba Father,

We cast Mrs Wong unto Your hands. We know that You are a merciful Lord, that You love all of us although we do not deserve it. Lord, please open Mrs Wong's heart, so that when we share with her about You, she would be able to accept You with a willingful heart. We pray for her salvation, and also pray that You would heal her from her sickness, so that she would be a living testimony for You.

In Jesus' precious name we pray, Amen.