A Game of Scrabble

Do you like to play Scrabble? I always like this game, maybe because I like the English language. Now that FB has this game, I often play it with other people around the world. I like to play this game because it helps to stimulate my mind to think. Well, I seldom use my brain, which is why I need some form of assistance ~ LOL.

When I first played this game, I can never win a game. However, I believe that practice makes perfect. Nowadays, I would say that I stand a 50-50 chance of winning a game. This game teaches me to think out of the box. There are a lot of times I miss some valuable points because I tend to overlook.

I enjoy this game very much. It teaches me to be, amongst others, observant, analytical and to be open-minded. I figure that sometimes I just look into one perspective and neglect others; but this game allows me to practise spotting the hidden things in life.

Random [I]

I am waiting for my colleague in the office. Actually I wanted to leave at 18:10, but she asked me to wait for her to finish some documents so that I can witness it; now is 19:42 and I am still waiting for her. I surf the net, read my friends' blogs, log on to FB etc, finally decided to pen down something here.

I have no idea what to write about, hence the title "Random". Perhaps I will share about my recent activities, or update about myself etc. Let's see how the flow goes...

Sometimes life is not as rosy as we wish it to be. Recently I am quite disturbed with certain events that happened in my life. I am not able to describe it one by one here, but I must say, I really feel lonely these days.

Where is God? My greatest fear is that God is not with me. All these while, I am always confident to say that God will be there for me at all times. However, I feel that I am far from Him recently. I guess this feeling started sometime in mid-June.

I know, and am certain that He is still with me, but I have to take the effort to build up my own relationship with Him. God is great, all the time; all the time, God is great!

I was given the opportunity to be part of a team, but I refused to join in. Why is this so? To be frank, I am not so sure of the main reason; all I know is this is the best step to take. My mind is so confused now. I wonder why things that seemed to be so certain months back can be so grayish now.

Grayish ~ I never like this area. To me, there are certain things which only involve either black, or white; and yes or no. Although sometimes I tend to be indecisive, but I never like this idea.

Am I a stubborn person? Perhaps so. I have a friend who commented that I am stubborn because I do not take advices. I asked a good friend of mine about this, and she did say that I am a very stubborn person. However, I can be persuaded as well; just that I need time to be convinced.

Okay, I think that is all for now. It is time to go home [20:10]

Hot as the SUN, Cold as the ICE

A friend gave me an inspiration on this metaphor. Hmm, what does this stand for? What do you see here? It is up to your imagination :)

Looking Around You...

Or rather, Looking Around ME...

Some people said: we should look out of the box because there are many beautiful things around us that we should learn to appreciate...

Recently I met with a very disappointing incident. This incident taught me to look around me. It also taught me that I do not have to give up the whole forest just because of one tree. This particular tree had caused me much hurt, but it also made me realised that there are a lot of trees that I should pay attention to.

To all my friends [you know who you are :)],

Thanks for your love and support;
Thanks for your encouragement and invaluable advices;
Thanks for your time and effort;
Thanks for being there with me and for me during my time in need.

Looking around me, I know that I should not stubbornly hold onto something that had caused me much hurt and disappointment; instead, I should learn to let go, because only by doing so I can see the other beautiful trees around me :)

Oh! What a Dilemma!

15 : 16...What does this stand for?

There is a Chinese saying which goes along this line: when we are not sure which step to take, we call it "sap ng, sap luk".

When my heart was warm,
it was not taken seriously,
Now that my heart is cold,
it will not be easy to rekindle it;

To turn left,
is not what my heart wants,
To turn right,
I might make the wrong decision;

15? or 16? Left? or Right?

Oh! What a dilemma!

Is there a point to go on with something that we no longer interested in? To date, I still describe it as "you", "they" but never described it as "we", "our"...

Is my heart there? or is it so because I do not have any sense of belonging?

Oh! What a dilemma!

So Near, Yet So Far [I]

It has been such a long time since I last posted an entry here. So, what is this entry about?

We all do grow up. Sometimes we wish that we can go back in time, so that we will not face the disappointments that we are facing now; so that we can make better decisions; so that we can get rid of unhappy moments etc

What is so near, yet so far? Have you ever met with strangers, then make friends with them, only to realise that they are strangers after all?

Well, this is what I am experiencing now. I feel that I am stranger to them, they are stranger to me. I feel that they are very far from me. I feel that I no longer know them.

I ask God, why is this so? How come it is like that? It should not be like that, isn't it? Oh Lord, please give me strength to go through this stage. Please teach me what to do. Do I continue to be stranger? or better still, should I leave this behind?