Gray

It has been such a long time I did not quiet down myself and do a self review. At this moment I feel that the road in front of me is gray.

I was asking myself: am I happy at this new workplace? I would like to think so; but sometimes we have to be honest with ourselves. I have only one concern, and that is, whether this is where God wants me to be; as I did not feel peaceful lately.

I am here for three (3) months, and I just do not know why I cannot find the energy to be focused on my work. Could it be environment? Could it be the profession? Could it be myself?

Perhaps it is more about myself. Have I entered the wrong profession? I am happy when I teach the kids tambourine. I am happy when my niece is here. Should I be a teacher?

Jesus be my only satisfaction! I need You to lead me through...

Am I Ready?

Once, I told my friend: Life, is like a bus journey, at each stop, we meet different kind of people and different kind of situation...

That, was about 9 years ago, when I first broke up with my then boyfriend...

Yesterday, I was a bit unhappy at work, and was telling a friend so; she shared with me a blog by Jaeson Ma, a very famous hip-hop Pastor, and it was entitled "Life is Beautiful".

 As I was reading it, I felt very touched by his testimony. When he made the prayer, "Jesus be my only satisfaction", I was asking myself whether I am ready to make such a commitment.

I then shared this with my friend, and this morning he told me that he had been pondering about the blog, and we had a short discussion thereafter.

Sometimes the line is really thin to make the differentiation. Why is that so? We thought that we feel blessed because of God, but actually it is because of the blessing that we are enjoying...

The blessings that we are enjoying may be due to our financial status, our career aspect et cetera. The blessings may be worldly and we may think that it is from God.

Oh Lord, please guide us through so that we may know how to draw the line, and also to commit ourselves to You.

Jesus be my only satisfaction. It is indeed a dangerous prayer and it is also a risk. However, behind the danger and the risk, we should trust that He will lead us through...

Therefore, Jesus be my only satisfaction!

Random [III]

Hm, something random for the day, or for the week...

This week is just so-so for me. Somehow I feel that I have a lot of things to express, or share out, but I just cannot figure out what is it about.

Perhaps it is about God. I feel that I am never bored to share what God has done in my life. Yes, His grace is sufficient for us.

Hm, yes, I know what to share! Last Wednesday, after the PM I received a call from the Worship Leader that the Speaker would like to sing a song called "Hineni". I have never heard of this song before and as I have the habit to practise before the service, I was not too comfortable with the idea to learn the song on Sunday morning itself.

Nonetheless I just kept this behind my mind, without thinking too much about it. On Friday, SM fetched me to and from work, and on our way home, I heard this song on her CD player! Wow, what a "coincidence"? I requested her to play the song again so that I could record it but she said: "Why not I just lend you the CD?". Oh, Praise the Lord!!

I knew I was going to be busy on Saturday, so I spent my Friday night listening to the song and search for the chords, despite my tiredness. As my brother was not at home, I had the whole living room by myself. After searching for the chords, I had an urge to pray in tongues. Yes, the Holy Spirit was just there at that moment!!

There are a lot of times we spend little time for God; what I meant is quiet time. On that day, I enjoyed God's presence. As I was praying, God gave me a picture: "Footprint". It was during this time that God is telling me to carrying burdens on my own shoulder and let Him carry it instead! Jesus, how could I thank You for Your assurance!!

FOOTPRINTS

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking
Along the beach with the Lord.

Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene,
He noticed two sets of footprints in the sand,
One belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
He looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life
There was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened
At the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him
And he questioned the Lord about it.
"Lord, You said that once I decided to follow You,
You'd walk with me all the way.

But I have noticed that
During the most troublesome times in my life,
There is only one set of footprints.
I don't understand why when I needed
You most you would leave me."

The Lord replied, "My precious, precious child,
I love you and I would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
When you see only one set of footprints,
It was then that I carried you." 

Written by Margaret Fishback Powers (1964)

Thank you, Abba Father!

A Lesson on Obedience

As I am typing this out, I have no idea what is on my mind. Hm, sounds ironic huh?

Last Sunday a Pastor prayed for me, He said: sometimes He wants me to do certain things, or going some places, which I am not willing to; but I need to trust on Him and just follow...

Oh Lord, I pray that You would open my spiritual eyes and spiritual ears, so that I will be always ever ready to take Your order. I know I am weak, and I might not be able to do the things that You want me to, but I trust in Your Wisdom and Guidance. Please lead me through...

It is never easy to let go and let God, as there are a lot of times we prefer to take things into our own hands. However, as time goes by, we would feel exhausted because we are so limited in every aspect of life.

God provides us Wisdom!

God is our source of Strength!

God gives us Courage!

God gives us Authority!

God is everything!

God is Jehovah Jireh!

I have read that God mould us to shape us into the character and personality that He wants us to become. The process may be painful, but the outcome is wonderful.

If we believe that God is great, what harm could there be to be obedient to Him?

God bless!

The Ship [IV]

It has been such a long time since I wrote about Jeff and Janice. The last time was about them being just normal friends.

Friendship is amazing in its own way, sometimes we do not know how we start a friendship, how it progresses and how it ends. Jeff and Janice are still friends, and I still think friendship is one of the best gift given by God =)

Actually I do not have the time to update the story here, so that is all for now!

Welcome the Second Half of 2010 =)

Good Morning! It is 07:07 and I am already in the office since 25 minutes ago. I intended to post this yesterday, but was just too busy to do so. Well, I guess a slight delay will not do any harm ;-)

Yesterday was the beginning of second half of year 2010. Hm, I guess I will be sharing what happened in the first half.

First and foremost, I thank God for His presence throughout the first half. I guess I must have experienced Him in a lot of aspects:-

In January, I contracted dengue and was hospitalised. This was my FIRST experience to stay at the hospital and I must say, I was touched by the concern, support, encouragement and PRAYERS from the Brothers and Sisters in Christ. Once again, THANK YOU! :) Of course, Jehovah Rapha ~ The Lord is our HEALER!

In March, I have finally decided to resign from my previous firm. It was indeed a "big" decision to make as my initial plan was to start my new job in July. However, it was by grace of God that I found this job now. To date, I am still enjoying the learning process, and I pray that God will lead me through in my career.

In May, I have started my new job, and because of this, I can attend Prayer Meeting every Wednesday. Oh, what a blessing! I feel really good after each Prayer Meeting; although I just serve by playing the piano, I enjoy every second of it. Praise the Lord :)

God is good, ALL the time! and of course, even at "bad" times. I met with road accident n 18th day of June 2010, when I was on my way to the A4J event. I was questioning WHY, because I was doing the "right" thing, and that was to attend a service, and hope to get more from Him :-?

Again! God is good, ALL the time! From this incident, I get to experience His grace even much further. I never thought that I could be that calm. Imagine, seeing another person lying down at the other side of the road, lost consciousness, the worst scenario would be...(you get what I mean)...>_<

AND once again, I experienced the warmness, support, encouragement and love from the Brothers and Sisters in Christ. It was actually quite a straightforward case, but another human was involved, hence the complications. Again, THANK YOU to all of you who prayed for me, I LOVE ALL OF YOU!! =)

Not to forget, during at times of need, Brothers and Sisters help one another; therefore, a big THANK YOU to those who fetch me to and/or from work, to Church etc. I really appreciate your helps :) May God continue to bless all of you abundantly!!

Hmm, that is the brief summary of my first half. I am looking forward to my second half, believing that His grace is always sufficient for me, I will experience Him more and more!

Have a great Second Half! =) God bless~

Our Daily Bread ~ A Worry List

July 1, 2010

A Worry List

READ: Matthew 6:25-34

Do not worry about tomorrow. —Matthew 6:34

I was worrying about a few things as I sat in my car under a shade tree at lunchtime. Then a robin, with a fat worm dangling from its mouth, landed near my door and looked up at me. The robin was a vivid reminder to me of Jesus’ words in Matthew 6:25-26, “Do not worry about your life . . . . Look at the birds of the air, for they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?”

Years ago, in an article in the Denver Seminary magazine Focal Point, Paul Borden gave some helpful suggestions for worriers:

Start a worry list. Write down what you’re worried about. The bills. Your job. Your children or grandchildren. Your health. The future.

Turn your worry list into a prayer list. Ask the Lord to work in those situations you’re concerned about. Pray specifically for your needs and depend on Him.

Turn your prayer list into an action list. If you have any insight that there’s something you can do about your cares, do it. As we turn our worries into prayer and action, Borden says, “Paralyzing anxiety can be replaced by concern for the responsibilities of life.”

Why not start your list right now? —Anne Cetas

Don’t fret about the future

Or be consumed by cares;

Instead take all your worries

And turn them into prayers. —Sper

What you have made a matter of prayer should cease to be a matter of care.