Tuesday, 12 January 2016

愛我還是他 David Tao


We just keep quiet in the darkness
You wanted to go back but I dont want u to
Loneliness is as deep as the sea until it scares people off
Your soft hand strokes through my hair lightly

Your eyes tell me that you want me to hug you
But your body is trying hard to avoid when hope rises again

You love me or him/her, Is it true he's/she's better than me
Who are you fighting for
You love me or him/her, Just say out whats in your heart
Are you following me or him/her
Love love love him/her

This is not our punishment in life
I cant love u I cant hate u
Stuck at here, Just want to get out of it
Try to pull your hand but I'm being pulled down by u as well

Your eyes tell me that you dont want me to hug you
Each time our love gets rocky, you will begin to avoid 

You love me or him/her, Can I do better
So that you will fight no more
You love me or him/her, I'd rather hear the cruel answer
Than being fool on

You love me or him/her, I try to find a hundred excuses for u
I am that foolish
You love me or him/her, Is it silence replaces your answer 
I think I should understand

Yeah, Love me or him/her
You do not see any future in us anymore
Who am i still fighting for
You love me or him/her, Is it silence replaces your answer
We dont deny it anymore, Go ahead & love him...


黑暗中的我們都沒有說話
你只想回家 不想你回家
寂寞深的像海太讓人害怕
溫柔你的手 輕輕揉著我的髮

你的眉眼說 你好渴望我擁抱
你身體卻在拼命逃 當慾望在燃燒

你愛我還是他 是不是真的他有比我好
你為誰在掙扎
你愛我還是他 就說出你想說的真心話
你到底要跟我還是他
愛愛愛他

這是不是命運對我的懲罰
愛你也沒辦法 恨你也沒辦法
陷在這個漩渦只想掙脫它
拉住你的手 卻讓我也被拖下

你的眉眼說 你不渴望我擁抱
每當愛變成了煎熬 你就開始要逃

你愛我還是他 是不是我可以做得更好
而你不再掙扎
你愛我還是他 我寧願聽到殘忍的回答
也不要再被耍

你愛我還是他 我為你找了一百個理由
我就是那麼傻
你愛我還是他 是否沉默代替你的回答
我應該明白吧

YEAH 愛我還是他 喔
你都已看不到我們的好
我還為誰牽掛 喔
你愛我還是他 是否沉默就是你的回答
我們都別掙扎 去愛他


Monday, 11 January 2016

You Owe Her The Love She Deserves



I sit there next to her, rubbing her back, as she’s sobbing on her bed. I tell her everything will be okay, but I’m not sure it really will be. Tears are pouring down her face and she can barely put together a sentence. I hate seeing her like this because she doesn’t deserve it. She lifts her head slightly up out of her hands and looks at me. She doesn’t understand how he isn’t sure if he loves her back.

She loves him so much. You can tell in the way she talks about him. The way she says his name. You can tell by the way she says, “I love you” over the phone and the way her eyes light up when he texts her.

But he doesn’t know if he loves her and it’s slowly killing her.

She doesn’t want to let him go, it’s been so long and she still insanely in love with him. She isn’t comfortable or settling, her heart still aches for him.

But he doesn’t know if he’s still in love with her.

He doesn’t compliment her or act like she’s one of the most important things in his world. He doesn’t support her or cherish her. He doesn’t brag about her to his friends, and he should. He should do all those things and more. Instead he acts uninterested. He acts like he doesn’t care. He acts like it wouldn’t matter if she were in his life or not. But he won’t let her go.

It’s not just breaking her heart, it’s breaking mine. You can only tell someone they deserve better so many times. But it’s not my life and it’s not my heart that’s passionately in love with someone who doesn’t know if they love you back, and that’s the hardest part.

If he doesn’t love the way her face lights up with she finds out exciting news, he should let her go. If he doesn’t love the way she mumbles the wrong words to her favorite song, let her go. If he doesn’t love the way her hair falls naturally, let her ago. If you don’t take pride in her work, let her go. If you don’t feel inspired when you roll over at 5 a.m. and see her, he should let her go.

She deserves so much more than that.

She deserves someone who will love how she laughs so hard she’ll cry. Someone who will love her so deeply that his heart feels like it’s going to beat out of his chest. Someone who laughs with her when she burns dinner for the second night in a row and decides pizza is better anyways. Someone who knows she’s smiling when she’s covering her mouth just by looking at her eyes.

If you can’t love her whole-heartedly all the time, let her go, because someone else will.

Someone will love the way she scrunches her nose and the look she gives when she wants to go home. Someone will love listening to her stories she tells at the end of her day. Someone will love helping her accomplish her goals and standing by her side when she succeeds. Someone will love the way she is happy and wants him there, but also love the way she is sad and needs him there.

Don’t be selfish with her, because she deserves so much more than that. Being with someone you don’t love is cruel, especially when you know she loves you. It’s holding her back from being free and finding real love. It’s holding her back from growing as a person and making herself happy. It’s holding her back from moving on.

Show her how much you love her when you’re with her, not when she’s moved on.

Because someone will love how the sound of her voice makes his bad day disappear. Someone will love hearing her name in conversation. Someone will want her being the last person he sees at night when he goes to sleep and the first person he sees when he wakes up in the morning. Someone will be proud to show her off. Someone will love her every second of everyday.

Someone will love her for her.


Friday, 8 January 2016

How To Make Bubur Cha Cha And 9 Other Malaysian Sweet Desserts From Your Childhood

1. Black glutinous rice sweet porridge (bubur pulut hitam)


Image via GoodyFoodies


INGREDIENTS:
250g black glutinous rice (pulut hitam), washed and drained
1.5 litres water
3 pandan leaves, knotted
100g gula melaka
30g caster sugar
250ml thin coconut milk
150ml thick coconut milk
1/2 tsp salt

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Place rice in a large pot with water and pandan leaves and bring to a boil. 

2. Once the water starts boiling, reduce heat to low and remove the pandan leaves. Simmer for 45 minutes until the liquid is thick and creamy. The rice should be soft, but with a bite to it.

3. Add gula melaka and caster sugar, and stir until dissolved. Pour in the thin coconut milk and simmer for another 10 to 15 minutes. Add salt and mix well.

4. Serve in small bowls topped with 1 tablespoon of thick coconut milk each. You can also serve it with a scoop of vanilla ice cream. 

Recipe adapted from GoodyFoodies.

2. Bubur cha cha




INGREDIENTS: 
80g orange sweet potato
80g yellow sweet potato
80g purple sweet potato 
150g yam (taro)
10g sago (tapioca pearls)
50g black-eyed beans, soaked for 1 hour
3 bananas, peeled and cut half inches thick

Tapioca flour jelly:
100g tapioca Flour
1/2 cup boiling water
Red colouring

Coconut milk base:
3 litres water
1 cup thick coconut milk
120g sugar
2 pandan leaves, knotted
Salt to taste

DIRECTIONS:
1. In boiling water, boil black-eye peas until soft. Boil sago, separately, until translucent and cooked.

2. Peel and cut all sweet potatoes and yam into cubes or desired shapes. Steam separately until cooked and tender.

3. To make tapioca flour jelly, place tapioca flour in a mixing bowl and pour in boiling water. Mix until well combined, forming a dough. Let cool, then roll out evenly on a well-floured surface and cut into cubes.

4. In a pot of water, add in 1 tbsp sugar before pouring in the bananas. Boil for 5 minutes, then drain and set aside. 

5. Bring 3 litres of water to a boil. Add in thick coconut milk, sugar, salt, and pandan leaves. Cook over low heat for about 10 to 20 minutes.

6. Add in the rest of the ingredients and mix well. Simmer and let boil before removing from heat. 

7. Serve warm or chilled. 

Recipe adapted from Rasa Malaysia.

3. Wheat sweet porridge (bubur gandum)


Image via You Beli


INGREDIENTS: 
300g whole wheat (biji gandum), soaked overnight 
1.5 litres water 
6 screwpine leaves (pandan), knotted 
100g palm sugar (gula Melaka) 
150g granulated sugar 
150ml water 
220ml thin coconut milk 
2 tbsp plain flour, mixed with a little water into a paste 
100ml thick coconut milk 
½ tsp salt 

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Drain the wheat and combine with water and 4 knotted pandan leaves in a deep saucepot. Bring to a boil and cook until wheat grains turn soft and have expanded. 

2. Place palm sugar, granulated sugar, the remaining 2 screwpine leaves and thin coconut milk in a saucepan, then bring to a boil to dissolve the sugars. 

3. Strain the syrup and discard the screwpine leaves and pour syrup into the wheat porridge pot. Bring to a simmering boil for a while. Thicken with flour paste, stirring continuously until thick. 

4. Combine thick coconut milk with salt and leave aside. Scoop wheat porridge into serving bowls and add a little thick coconut milk for added taste.

Recipe by Amy Beh via Kuali.

4. Sweet mung bean stew (bubur kacang hijau)


Image via Resep Harian


INGREDIENTS:
1/2 cup (100g) dried mung beans 
1 litre water 
2 pandan leaves, tied into a knot 
3 slices ginger (optional) 
2 tbsp pearl sago 
3 tbsp chopped palm sugar 
3 tbsp white sugar 
Pinch of salt 
125 ml (1/2 cup) thick coconut milk 

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Rinse the mung beans well. Place them in a saucepan with water and pandan leaves. Bring to a boil and simmer on medium heat until the beans are tender (about 30 minutes). If you are using ginger, add them in now.

2. Stir in the pearl sago and continue to simmer until the sago turns translucent. 

3. Add palm sugar, white sugar, and salt. Simmer for another 5 minutes. 

4. Add coconut milk and gently bring to a boil. Turn off the heat. 

5. Serve the mung bean porridge hot or warm. 

Recipe adapted from Rohani Jelani via HungryGoWhere Malaysia.

5. Sweet red bean soup


Image via sleepwalks9to5


INGREDIENTS: 
1 1/2 cup red azuki beans 
1/2 cup Chinese rock sugar or raw sugar
2 pieces dried tangerine or orange peel (optional) 

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Soak the red beans in cold water for 2 hours, then drain.

2. In a large pot, add the beans and then pour in some fresh water until it's 2 inches above the beans. With medium heat, bring mixture to a boil.

3. Once it starts to boil, turn the heat down to low and add in the tangerine peels if you are using them. Cook for approximately 3 hours, stirring occasionally and topping up the water as needed. 

4. When the red beans are mostly broken down and the soup is thick with dissolved red bean, add sugar to taste and stir. Note: Don't add sugar before this point, otherwise your beans won't soften properly. 

5. Once sugar has dissolved completely, let cook until the soup reaches your desired consistency. Serve warm.

Recipe adapted from The Hong Kong Cookery.


6. Sweet potato and ginger soup


Image via 3 Hungry Tummies


INGREDIENTS:
2 medium-sized sweet potatoes
5 cm piece of ginger
2 pandan leaves, knotted
2 litres water
1/2 cup rock sugar or brown sugar

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Peel sweet potatoes and cut into bite-sized chunks.

2. Slice the ginger into 2 or 3 segments, then bash it with a pestle and mortar (or any blunt object).

3. Bring water to a boil. Add in sweet potatoes, ginger, and pandan leaves. Let simmer over medium heat until sweet potatoes are cooked. 

4. Add in rock sugar or brown sugar and mix until it dissolves completely. Add sugar according to desired sweetness. 

5. Serve warm or chilled.

Recipe adapted from 3 Hungry Tummies and Jennifer Lam via I Ate My Way Through.

7. Sweet peanut soup


Image via Use Real Butter


INGREDIENTS:
350g raw peanuts, shelled
8 cups water
2 to 3 pandan leaves, knotted
1/2 cup sugar
4 tbsp coconut milk

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Soak the peanuts in a large bowl of water overnight and make sure none are sticking out of the water. If there are skins on the peanuts, they will come off after soaking them. When done soaking, rinse the peanuts and drain all of the excess water off. 

2. Place the peanuts and knotted pandan leaves in a pressure cooker and add the 8 cups of water. Pressure cook the peanuts and on high heat for 15 minutes. 

3. Reduce the heat to medium and cook for another 30 to 40 minutes. Remove from heat and let the pressure cooker cool naturally (natural release). 

4. Remove the lid of the pressure cooker and heat the soup over medium heat. Add sugar to taste. The peanuts should be completely soft after all of that time in the pressure cooker. If they aren’t, let them boil until they reach a creamy fall-apart texture. 

5. Add coconut milk and let the soup return to a boil for a minute. Remove from heat. You can either serve it hot or let it cool and serve it chilled. 

Recipe adapted from Use Real Butter.


8. Ginkgo and barley dessert with foo chuk (dried beancurd)


Image via thepodanys


INGREDIENTS:
50g barley
20 to 25 ginkgo nuts, shells removed
1 to 2 pieces dried beancurd sheets
1.5 litres boiling water
2 pandan leaves, knotted
Rock sugar, to taste
3 eggs (optional)

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Rinse barley and ginkgo nuts. Soak barley in water for about 30 minutes. Rinse dried beancurd. In a separate bowl, soak dried beancurd sheets until soft, then drain.

2. Add pandan leaves, barley and ginkgo nuts into boiling water. Cook over medium heat, covered, for about 30 to 45 minutes, until ingredients soften.

3. Add beancurd sheets and continue to cook until they are soft enough to break into pieces. 

4. Add rock sugar to taste and mix well until it dissolves completely. Let boil for another 15 minutes or so before serving. 

Recipe adapted from Christine's Recipes and Delicious Asian Food.


9. Split mung beans soup with "you tiao" (lek tau suan)




INGREDIENTS:
150g split green (mung) bean 
2 pandan leaves, washed and knotted 
50g rock sugar 
500ml water 
1 you tiao (fried dough fritters or you char kway), cut into pieces

Thickener: 
40g sweet potato flour or water chestnut flour, mixed with 125ml (1/2 cup) water 

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Soak the beans in water for 1 hour. Then, drain and rinse with water. Drain again. 

2. Steam the beans for about 30 minutes, or until they are soft. 

3. In a pot, add water, pandan leaves and sugar. Bring to a boil, reduce heat, and add in the steamed beans. 

4. Before using the thickener, stir the solution again to make sure it is even. Stir in the thickener slowly until mixture thickens. Note: Stop adding once the soup reaches your desired consistency. 

5. Serve warm, topped with you tiao pieces.

Recipe adapted from wiffy via NoobCook.


10. Sago pudding drizzled with gula melaka syrup and coconut milk


Image via Asian Supper


INGREDIENTS:
1 cup pearl sago
8 cups water
1 tablespoon milk
1 cup coconut milk
1 pinch of salt

Palm sugar syrup:
120g palm sugar
1 pandan leaf

INSTRUCTIONS:
1. Put the sago in a sieve and shake over sink to dislodge any loose starch.

2. Bring water to boil in a large pan, and slowly pour in sago, stirring constantly with a wooden spoon. Boil uncovered, stirring occasionally, until sago balls turn transparent (about 15 mins).

3. Tip sago into large wire mesh sieve and hold under cold running water to wash away starch (about 45 secs). Shake sieve until well drained, then stir in milk (which will turn colour from dull grey to white).

4. Transfer to 4 serving glasses and refrigerate when cooled. 

5. To make palm sugar syrup, combine palm sugar and pandan leaf in a small pan. Bring to a boil, stirring until sugar is dissolved. Simmer until reduced to 1/2 cup. Remove pandan leaf and cool.

6. To serve, transfer palm sugar syrup and coconut milk to 2 separate small jugs. Add a pinch of salt to coconut milk. Serve with chilled sago to taste. 

Recipe adapted from kgw via Nigella.com.