Change [III]

This is the third time I blog about this topic and I notice that I have been quite general about this. Recently I notice that I have been facing some changes in my life; things have been changing too quickly that I am not ready for it. Hm, not really, because I have prepared myself for some changes to take place.

"Ships" do change. There are times we feel that the ship is sailing smoothly, and there are times the ship is facing with obstacles. Sometimes I do not understand what had happened that caused the ship to sink (or about to sink). Sometimes I wonder why do I put myself in the ship.

I am a little tired. I thought the longer we sail together, the more understanding we have. However, it seems that the longer we sail together, we find that we are so different in a lot of aspects. I wonder, if we have respect for one another, the ship will become stronger; because we accept one another's differences and respect one another. Nonetheless, not many may agree with me on this.

Perhaps I have to let go of the ships that put me down. Perhaps this is the lesson that I need to learn. Sometimes, holding too tight, not giving one another space to breathe, will be detrimental to all involved. Yes, it is time to let go...let go...let go ~

Bersih 3.0: 428

The official colour for Bersih 3.0

Today is 28th April 2012. Once again, it is a historic day in our country. Today is Bersih 3.0. It is a rally on the following issues:-

1. Clean electoral roll
2. Free and fair access to media
3. Minimum 21 days of campaign period
4. Reform postal ballot
5. Use indelible ink
6. Strengthen public institution
7. Stop dirty politic
8. Stop corruption

There were thousands of protestors who attended this rally. When I checked on FB, I saw a lot of my friends updating their FB status, about the condition at the various check points. It is really great to know that Malaysians are united to do something for our country. I believe that we Malaysians, are just hoping that our voices will be heard, and through our action, we are shouting out "loud" that we hope for clean election in the country.

It is supposed to be a peaceful gathering. However, in an article on Malaysiakini, the report as follow:-

"After orders to disperse are issued, water cannons and tear gas are fired at the crowd outside the Bar Council building at Lebuh Pasar Besar."

It was so sad to know that the police is taking actions against the citizens. I wonder what is the future of our country; again, and again, we see citizens being oppressed just because we want out voices to be heard. I really pray that the nation will change.

Let's pray for change! Let's pray for our country!

Craving

There is one thing that I am craving at this moment, and that is God. Yes, I am craving for Him. Mom & Chris went to China today and I am alone at home with my dad. It has been such a long time since I stayed up this late and today I am doing this because I feel that I want to spend a lot of time with Him. I am not a holy person, in fact I am just another imperfect human being, craving for whatever things that every human would want to crave for.

There are a lot of things running on my mind right now and I do not know where to start thinking and hence, I need Him urgently. Today the sermon shared by the foreign Pastor was great. I went out to pray at the altar and was hoping that the speaker would pray for me. Three [3] people came to pray for me, but I did not get the "result" that I wanted. All I did was, crying.

Then I wonder, perhaps the Lord wants me to get the answer from Him directly, instead of relying on others to tell me what He wants me to know.

I crave for His presence, for HIs comfort, for His words, for His guidance, for His wisdom, for His love, for His peace, for everything!

Lord, You alone know what is on my mind now. Please teach me what to do. In Your name I pray, Amen.