In a blink of an eye, 2009 is coming to an end. I still remember my last post of year 2008, whereby I was sharing how God had lead me.
This year has been a quiet year. My life generally was like a roller coaster. Sometimes it is high, sometimes it is low. Hm, should I consider it as an exciting year? Perhaps so...
Things were still fine during early of the year. I still remember last year this time, I was anticipating for a better 2009. I was hoping that relationships would be better, career would be more stable, etc.
Shortly after I fell down from the staircase in February, things started to change gradually.
From a very close group of friends, we became like strangers,
From a stranger, we became close out of a sudden,
From an acquaintance, we became closer as time goes by,
From very close, we became strangers again...
Up and down, up and down; that was my life in 2009.
In terms of career, as usual, I feel that I am stagnant in this place. Should I move on? Should I stay? Where do You want me to go?
This Christmas has been very quiet. I went to my former Church to attend Christmas service. Ironically, I felt home. However, things often happen in such a way that we ourselves cannot understand. I was hoping, and still hoping that I can grow up spiritually in a place I think I can grow; but God seems to be playing tricks on me. The more I want to leave, the more tasks He is giving me.
Oh, what should I do? Should I stay on for another few months? Well, knowing myself, I think I would not be going anywhere until strong signals from Him showing that I should move on.
Will 2010 be a better year? Will my blog entry be different at this time next year?
