Thursday, 6 April 2017

You Will be Deeply Missed [II]



Dear Alex Sim,

Today you'll bid us goodbye
Many of us will cry
Asking God why
You must say this goodbye


You've left a legacy behind
We will keep in mind
To be sincere & kind
To all mankind

You've lived a life
Impacting many lives
Your light will continue to shine
Till we say "hi" (in heaven)
弟兄,一路好走。。再见了

Thursday, 30 March 2017

You Will Be Deeply Missed [I]

I was back to office from lunch and received a call from a sister. We usually text each other and to receive a call from her on a working day was not a norm. She told me that she received a text message which informed the passing of a brother whom she knew I was quite close with.

Shocked. Numbed. I was not convinced so I asked her to forward to me the text; maybe that's because I am a word person, I have to read to be convinced.

Shortly after, another sister text me and then another...

Reality did not set in until much later. I could not focus on my work at all. The whole afternoon was trying to recollect myself and discussing with some sisters how we could help his family...

I still remember when I first knew him, he was one of the very few who made me feel welcomed.

Once we were in a gathering at a Pastor's house, and they were playing boardgames. I was standing there alone, not knowing many people & he called me to join the group. Another time I was just standing there after service and he invited me to join the rest for dinner. There was once we had a YA game session and he took good care of me, asked me to follow his car.

There were several occasions he helped me when I needed help by just a call away. In the midst of his busyness, he would spare time for his friends. Once, my Eagle could not start and I was around his housing area, so I called him for help; instead of staying in the comfort of his own home, he came to my rescue.

He gave sound advice and cared from his heart. He told me he cared about my happiness and usually many would say this but would not act on it. He was different, he actually acted on it by introducing someone to me. 

Always cheerful, always jovial, always positive....I could not understand but to ask God, why?

"Alice...Alice..."; his voice ringing in my ears :(

We last met in January at a stall nearby my office, having red wine chicken for lunch; and he bought me lunch that day because my birthday was coming soon. 

His birthday is next month and it would be my turn to buy him a meal but.... :(

We last contacted each other two days ago because I asked him something about my policy. He had always been a helpful agent and would go the extra mile to assist.

My dear brother, you will be deeply missed :(




Thursday, 9 March 2017

Hope & Reality

It is 17:41 now. In another 10 minutes, I would need to shut down. Somehow, there is a heavy feeling in me, that I feel like pouring out before I get too burdened by this feeling.

Though I am not sure what is this feeling about. I guess, it may be about someone who had entered my life recently. This person, let's call "X", has occupied a little space in my heart. 

When I hope that things would progress naturally and gradually, God may have a different plan for me. In a day, something that was hopeful had turned out to be an undesirable reality.

Why is it so?

Off and on, X would come across my mind. X may have occupied a little space in my heart, but I remember a friend had given me this wise advice: "Follow your heart, but please bring your brain with you"; hence, my mind had been analysing the whole situation from A to Z, head to toe, front to back...in short, from every possible angle.

Should I move on? Should I continue to wait?

I will not do anything until X approaches me. 

Let go, and let God do the rest!

Father Lord,

I commit this Ship unto Your hands. May You lead both of us with Your Godly wisdom and help us to discern what You have planned for us in our lives. Cover us with Your protection. Help us to forgive each other. May Your Love, Joy, Peace and Grace be with us.

In Jesus' precious name, 
Amen