When Stress Comes into the Picture ~

I do not like stress. Well, who likes stress? I always try to have a laid back lifestyle, and try to avoid stress as much as I can. Of course, living in this stressful society, we cannot avoid stress. It really depends on how we look at it, how we manage it, how we take it and how far we want it to affect us.

When stress hits, we will have symptoms like headache, bad mood, anxiety et cetera. In short, we will be affected physically, emotionally and even psychologically.

Lately I am very stressed. Sometimes I feel that I think like a "man". Why? This is because I want to hide in my own "cave" and hope that I can find a solution. LOL.

When I am at home, I hope to have peace, because that is the only place where I can feel rested and I believe in what we call "home sweet home". Unfortunately this does not always happen. There will be conflict at home too, especially when family members come into disagreements on certain issues. I tend to have bad temper lately too. Sometimes I really hope that I am alone at home, with no disturbance of any sort.

There is another place which I know I could find some peace, and that is my Eagle. I will pray in the car most of the time and enjoy God's presence. Today the traffic was quite bad on the way to work, and because I was rushing, I felt very annoyed and frustrated because I was at the Land Office for half the day. Shortly after I posted my status on FB, I was reminded of something which I have read few weeks back. It says something like this, "when you are stucked in a jam, perhaps the Lord wants you to slow down". I felt calmer after that.

Perhaps being laid back is just the way I choose to face stress; not that I am cool, not that I do not care about things, not that I am trying to be ignorant or indifferent; but I just hope that by being so, I can reduce the stress that I have. It does not work all the time, especially when crisis hits in; but at least I can try to comfort myself in such a manner.

I have been quite lazy to work out lately, and I guess maybe that is the reason why I feel so stressful. Weng Yin, it is time to put on my gear again ~

Phew, feeling much better after putting down my feelings. I hope that God will help me through this stressful moment. Amen.

First Love

I was late for Church today. As I entered, I was having mixed feelings, because I do not know what to expect. I have "physically" left the Church and I was here today because I wanted to support my mom as she was sharing her testimony during the special lunch today.

For some reason, the word "First Love" came to my mind. I think I need to search back my first love for God. I tried to focus during the whole service. During altar call, I went out and told myself I was going to deal with God personally. There was nobody to pray for me, instead someone asked me to help them when the leaders were praying for those in need.

Lord, please help me to search my first love for You. In Jesus' precious name I pray, Amen.

Walk for the Freedom to Walk

The Peaceful Assembly Bill which was passed on 29th November 2011 would have the capability of robbing our constitutional rights as a citizen. One comment on Malaysiakini: "I can't believe i am protesting for my RIGHTS to protest".

My colleague sms me last night and asked whether I would like to participate in this Walk. Frankly, I have no such intention because I seldom care about the affairs in our country (shame on me, yes). Nonetheless, I was on standby with my court attire and on the way to office, my colleague sms me again. I am not as passionate as my colleague to have the intention to do something for the country (shame on me again, yea).

When I reached the office, she forwarded an excerpt of the President of the Bar Council's explanation of the Bill and for some reason, I had the sudden urge to attend. I went online to read about this Bill and felt unpeaceful about it. I made a prayer and said, "Lord, if you want me to go, please let me have my boss' approval".

Prayer answered and I was all set to go. When I reached the place, I could not believe that I was doing something like this. Well, those who know me will understand why I am saying this; and as mentioned earlier, why should I even bother myself with all these, and mind you, there is a possibility of being arrested by the police.

I see members of the Bar getting ready for the walk, and tried to understand the impact of this Bill when I was there. At 12:30, we started our walk to Parliament. When we were about to reach, we could see the police with those shields (erm, you call it FRU?). For the first time in my life, I brought myself in such a situation. In my mind I was wondering, what if they attack us? What should I do? What if I am arrested? What would my parents' reaction be IF they see me on TV?

There were four (4) of us from our firm who participated in this "illegal" Walk. As we cannot enter the Parliament, we need to wait outside. We followed the "leaders" to shout:
"Bebas, bebas!"
"Bebas Himpun!"
"Hidup Rakyat!"
"Hidup Bebas!"
and the like~

We also tried to get the motorist to honk their vehicle when they passed by us. Whenever there was such support, we would cheer. We left at about 13:00 because we had to work (half day gone, that's why I am still here :p)

When I was shouting the slogans with other participants, I felt very touched by the acts and supports of the members of the Bar. In fact, I was close to tears. My colleague was telling me this, "Lawyers deal with the law, and we are the "best" people to voice out this protest because we know what are the implications".

I want to share out my insights on this experience and hope that all of us will take a step further to pray for our country. We make not be able to see the impact of this now, but what about the future, when our children will be living here under the system of this country?

Freedom of Assembly, Freedom of Speech, Freedom of Expression & Freedom of RELIGION! This Bill may in a way, affect all these freedoms that are entitled to us under the Federal Constitution~

With Ms Ambiga

I did nothing but to walk and give my minimal support to the Bar. As Malaysians, I hope all of us will give our support in our prayers. Let's pray for Malaysia!

YESUSLAH TUHAN YANG LAYAK DITINGGIKAN
LAYAK DISEMBAH OLEH SUKU-SUKU BANGSA
DENGAN DARAH-MU, KAU TELAH TEBUS DOSAKU
GENAPI TUHAN FIRMAN-MU ATAS NEG’RIKU

REFF:
HATIKU RINDU MELIHAT KEMULIAAN-MU
HATIKU RINDU MELIHAT CURAHAN KUASA-MU
DI TANAH TERCINTA NEG’RIKU MALAYSIA
KUBERDOA MALAYSIA PENUH KEMULIAAN-MU
MALAYSIA BAGI KEMULIAAN-MU

YA ALLAHKU NYATAKAN KEMULIAAN-MU
YA ALLAHKU NYATAKAN CURAHAN KUASA-MU
DI TANAH TERCINTA NEG’RIKU MALAYSIA
KUBERDOA MALAYSIA PENUH KEMULIAAN-MU
MALAYSIA BAGI KEMULIAAN-MU