keep in touch…mere words of courtesy or…? ~ 30th May 2007

keep in touch…mere words of courtesy or…?

very often we tell our friends to keep in touch (k.i.t.) at the end of our meeting or gathering but how often do we keep our words?…or do we say those words just for the sake of courtesy?

it has come to a point that i’m tired of keeping in touch with friends…especially when i sense that the ‘fire’ no longer exists…i asked myself: am i the cause?…or is it because of change?…i think there are many reasons to explain and some reasons can be very subjective too…

i stil remember a good friend of mine, CLAY, who always called me up to catch up with each other’s life but i seldom make the calls notwithstanding the fact that i do sms and e-mail…as time goes by, the calls become lesser and lesser and lesser to the extent that not even e-mails and sms-es are being exchanged…why is this so?…well, maybe she’s tired of becoming the one who keeps on taking the initiative…this reminds me to be more pro-active and careful next time…to this friend, i would like to say THANK YOU for your efforts to k.i.t. with me…i appreciate it and hope we are still able to k.i.t. in the future…

from this experience, i tend to take up the initiative to k.i.t. with my friends…sometimes it’s rewarding, sometimes it’s otherwise…whichever it is, i still find it ‘nourishing’ to k.i.t. because no man lives in an island and we can gain a lot of things from these meetings or gatherings…be it good or bad, it is still an experience…for instance, i found out that sometimes a simple word of "hi" is able to make a lot of difference…it may even brighthen up someone’s day=)

here, i would like to take this opportunity to thank my friends who have been keeping in touch with me…particularly, Gerri, Wendy, Jacklyn, Sheryn, Lavaine, Andrew, Sim Yee, Man, Ting Ting and many more…my apology if i missed out any of your names…

Happy Keeping in Touch^ ^

AliceYin

My Days at TTC ~ 16th October 2006

My Days at TTC

22 July 2005

this was my first day at TTC…i was told that the person whom i would be replacing would be leaving the next day…back then i had no idea how to cope with the workload as i was give only a day to learn all the things…i still remember my biggest worry was to remember all the kids’ names…phew, there were more than a hundred kids and i have to know all of them…it was not easy but as time passed, i was used to it and now, having left TTC for about 7 months, i still remember most of them…

As i was doing my work, few 6 year olds came to me asking about me…my principal told me that i will always remember one kid by the name of LHY cuz he’s very naughty and always misbehave…i muz say of all d kids, tis boy gave me the deepest impression and i will never forget him…an extremely bright,smart and mature…he had became one of my favourites…

Aug ‘05 - Mar ‘06

i enjoyed working with the kids…they always remind me to be simple and taught me to enjoy my life…i started to build relationship with the kids and i was honoured to be part of the team educating our future generation…amongst the kids that i especially like are  WZJ, KCH, KSH and many more…some of them need some extra attention, whilst there are some whom i admire…hehe(",)…from time to time, i would take a peek at them especially when they were taking their nap…i realised that no matter how mischievous and naughty they are, all of them look the same (they all have the naive look) when they sleep…

31 March 2006

this was my last day at TTC…as i was completing my work, i knew that i will miss these kids…i felt so ‘heavy’ when i walked out of the gate…i wonder when i will be back to see them again…

15 Oct 2006

this was TTC’s concert day…i agreed to help and was so anxious to see the kids again…i had a bad headache the day before and was hesitant to attend but since i agreed, i have to keep my words…it was great as i enjoyed myself throughout the day. Although i din get to see the performances, it was good enough for me to help out back stage…i was surprised that some of the kids remembered my name and i was especially happy when LHY called me…it was a busy day but it was worth it…i sensed that i really love working with kids…when i went for interview at a law firm, the interviewer asked why i did not take some course relating to pre-school education cuz law is completely different…i never thought of this seriously as i wanted to do law since i was 13…well, maybe i shall consider this in the near future…as for now, i’m curious as to how the legal world is like…

As I Grow Up

All of sudden feel like posting this here. As I grow up, I also learned that I need to be more reserved and need not tell the whole world about everything.

Once a guy told me that he liked me and because at that time I do not like him for the reason he gave was unacceptable to me, I told this to my "close" friends. Another guy also told me that he liked me some time after, and again due to the reason given was unacceptable to me, I also told this dissatisfaction to my "close" friends. To these two [2] friends, I would like to apologise as I did not mean to spread out to others, but the "fire" in me was quite great, hence the "sharing".

I am reading "Men are from Mars, Women are from Venus" and found out why I did so. All I needed was a good listener and whoever was willing to listen, I was willing to share.

Then I am thinking, if a "close" friend likes me but due to my "open" nature, for fear of rejection and fears that the news will be spread, keeps the feeling to himself. Hm, what should I do then?

A spiritual elder told me this, if and when I decided to start to date a guy, and to protect each other, we need to keep it real secret until we are ready to proceed to courtship, then break the news to others. Now I am thinking, if I really meet a guy that I like, I think I would be able to do so.

There is a saying which goes, "Never Judge a Book by its Cover". Although I look "open" but deep inside I am quite reserved and shy. I am not the type who would take initiative to let the guy that I like know that I like him. Likewise, I would keep the "discovery" stage a real secret until we are ready to break the news to others.

As I grow up, I have learned to protect the guy as well, especially if he is the one whom I like. At the same time, I found out that I was "open" about the other two [2] guys because I do not like them. However, this is not right and I hope to improve myself on this aspect in near future.

Weng Yin, all the best :)