So Far Yet So Near [II]

I remember posting about "So Near Yet So Far". This time it is total opposite.

Last time, the situation was, we were physically close and from appearance it looks as though we were really close, but the truth was, I could not even feel that we were close, not at all. In fact, there was a sense of betrayal in me. I thought I was used, I thought they were not sincere in our friendship. I was in fact, deeply hurt.

I just went to check out on FB a minute ago and saw this:

"Time heals because human tend to have the ability to forget"

I guess time is really a great healer because when we put behind things that have hurt us, we will forget about it. I thank God for His mercy and grace that in these few months I have learnt to rely on Him, and to be close to Him.

In these few months, I have spent more time with Him, and I enjoy serving Him. My heart to serve Him has come back and I hope that the fire within me will continue to burn.

The situation this time is different in that, I am not very close with them but when I see the photos, I have a feeling that draw me to them. I feel that I want to be part of this big family. I know God already has His plan in me and I pray hard for His light to be shone on me, so that I will follow Him alone, and focus on Him alone, in order to fulfil His purpose in me.

Jesus, I thank You for everything.

My Brain is Amazing

"Just because I want to forget something, I have forgotten everything that is related to the thing, and the thing that I have forgotten is actually something important >_<"

This was one of my status on FB. It is good to know that my brain has such a function. I wanted to forget this 'thing' and eventually I have forgotten about everything that is related to it, even important things that I should not forget, such as password.

However, I am really thankful that finally I have forgotten about this 'thing' and the fact that I have forgotten the password shows that I have let go of this thing. A friend asked me how did I do it, I just told her that when you have let go of the thing that is holding you tightly, eventually you will forget everything about this thing.

LOL, so what is this 'thing'? Well, told you I have forgotten about it :p

A Feeling Described as "FUNNY"

I have a very funny feeling in me right now. Hmm, how to describe? Well, if I have a better word to describe it I would not be using the word "funny". A friend of mine would spell it as "farnee".

Cool. Coldness. Distant. Unreachable. Clueless. Indifferent. Ignorant.

Yes. These are the words to describe my feeling right now.

I hope that I can be released from these feelings soon. Sometimes I really feel 'clueless' as to what is happening. I wish I have a clue but I also hope I can let go...

We care, but we act as though we do not care. 

We care, but the person that we care for seems far away.

Should we stop caring?

I remember sharing this:

We make those who care for us cry; we cry for those who never care for us; and we care for those who will never cry for us; and

Never explain yourself to anyone, because the person who likes you doesn't need it, and the person who dislikes you wont believe it.