Looking Around You...

Or rather, Looking Around ME...

Some people said: we should look out of the box because there are many beautiful things around us that we should learn to appreciate...

Recently I met with a very disappointing incident. This incident taught me to look around me. It also taught me that I do not have to give up the whole forest just because of one tree. This particular tree had caused me much hurt, but it also made me realised that there are a lot of trees that I should pay attention to.

To all my friends [you know who you are :)],

Thanks for your love and support;
Thanks for your encouragement and invaluable advices;
Thanks for your time and effort;
Thanks for being there with me and for me during my time in need.

Looking around me, I know that I should not stubbornly hold onto something that had caused me much hurt and disappointment; instead, I should learn to let go, because only by doing so I can see the other beautiful trees around me :)

Oh! What a Dilemma!

15 : 16...What does this stand for?

There is a Chinese saying which goes along this line: when we are not sure which step to take, we call it "sap ng, sap luk".

When my heart was warm,
it was not taken seriously,
Now that my heart is cold,
it will not be easy to rekindle it;

To turn left,
is not what my heart wants,
To turn right,
I might make the wrong decision;

15? or 16? Left? or Right?

Oh! What a dilemma!

Is there a point to go on with something that we no longer interested in? To date, I still describe it as "you", "they" but never described it as "we", "our"...

Is my heart there? or is it so because I do not have any sense of belonging?

Oh! What a dilemma!

So Near, Yet So Far [I]

It has been such a long time since I last posted an entry here. So, what is this entry about?

We all do grow up. Sometimes we wish that we can go back in time, so that we will not face the disappointments that we are facing now; so that we can make better decisions; so that we can get rid of unhappy moments etc

What is so near, yet so far? Have you ever met with strangers, then make friends with them, only to realise that they are strangers after all?

Well, this is what I am experiencing now. I feel that I am stranger to them, they are stranger to me. I feel that they are very far from me. I feel that I no longer know them.

I ask God, why is this so? How come it is like that? It should not be like that, isn't it? Oh Lord, please give me strength to go through this stage. Please teach me what to do. Do I continue to be stranger? or better still, should I leave this behind?